30-12-2010 2304H
One more day 2010 is ending. I would said that year 2010 will be a year where i changed and experience most. Review back the past one year, many things happened. I just can said that i had found myself and get out from there. It seem like it would not happen but it happens.
January - the start of this blog and start writing all my secret in this blog.
Feb - Run out of the blog but it seem like he was not happy and end up with an unhappy relationship.
March - He felt guilty of being so bad to a girl and started to blame himself and start turn out from the circle.
April - He started to find back himself and start to join and know the plu group.
May - He had know feel plu friends and started to search and hang around with them. And finally he found someone that he can relied on.
June - Went to Shanghai Expo and first time travel to Shanghai, China.
July - Had recovered much more and build back his confidence because the presence of him.
August - In a love mood.
September - Had obtain grade A and highest score in his exam.
October - Had went off to the jungle for 5 weeks and stay the life of orang kampung.
November - Fetching the lover to airport and experience lost in the way back from airport. haha.......;) drive in a unknown place.
Disember - Struggling with busy life and prepare and helping the lover in renovating the new house.
And it seem like many others story havent include such as sky wedding, argueing with father, discriminating myself from other friend, depress and low mood at the first few month, had my first sex experience, and the most important is i find back my happiness.
although it seem everything changed so fast. I had learn many things in this year and gain myself to be more mature. I hope for year 2011, everything will be fine and the happiness is still maintain. Just wish that i could same my precious time with the people i love and i care and i concern. Tomorrow is the last day of 2010. And it is glad that i can spend my time with the lover and family. ( thanks for the malaysia football team where they won the Susuki cup - as the PM announced tmw is a public holiday ..yahooo) So wish my parents, dear, plu friend esp wong, lee, jason, kkling, and scotty , my heng dai brothers, my old school friend, and my coursemate all happy always and wish all have a happy year eve.
Best regards,
last blog in 2010.
p/s : Today went out to shop with the dear and bought two nice underwear as my own gift to celebrate the Christmas and new year. Haha......
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
Guilty of my laziness
21-12-2010 (Tuesday)
It was a lazy week. I did not study for few days. I wonder why i could not have the spirit anymore. I am so guilty of it. Yesterday, it was a unproductive day as well. YEsterday, scolded by 2 lectures and the mood was unfavourable. Therefore, i went to find the bamboo and felt so wonderful during the time together. The day so tiring. Get on bed at 10pm. At first just want to have a 15 minutes rest but haiz....cant wake up and when i wake up, it was the next day. Everyone is celebrating christmas with his lover, everyone is enjoying their holiday, everyone is clearing their leave, and can i enjoy and relax myself? But, the guiltiness will always stand besides me if i become lazy. Which should i choose?
It was a lazy week. I did not study for few days. I wonder why i could not have the spirit anymore. I am so guilty of it. Yesterday, it was a unproductive day as well. YEsterday, scolded by 2 lectures and the mood was unfavourable. Therefore, i went to find the bamboo and felt so wonderful during the time together. The day so tiring. Get on bed at 10pm. At first just want to have a 15 minutes rest but haiz....cant wake up and when i wake up, it was the next day. Everyone is celebrating christmas with his lover, everyone is enjoying their holiday, everyone is clearing their leave, and can i enjoy and relax myself? But, the guiltiness will always stand besides me if i become lazy. Which should i choose?
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Tired
8-12-2010 (Wednesday)
Today i felt tired and exhausted. It was so sleepy. It was a no mood day. I felt so bored with my life. It is like repeating everyday with the same thing. It was so dull. Today i dont feel want to wake up in the morning. I force myself to wake up which i dont willing to do. I hate december. Bc it is a holiday mood for me. Now, i have to struggle myself. Haiz.....what a bad mood for today. Yesterday the bamboo told me that he can get the key soon. I was so glad to hear that. But, in other way, do i have time to help in out in decorating his new house? I hope i can. I dont want to miss out the time with him. haha... It was a no plan day. I dont know what should i plan to do today. No surprise day. No sms receive. DULL !!!!!!!!
Today i felt tired and exhausted. It was so sleepy. It was a no mood day. I felt so bored with my life. It is like repeating everyday with the same thing. It was so dull. Today i dont feel want to wake up in the morning. I force myself to wake up which i dont willing to do. I hate december. Bc it is a holiday mood for me. Now, i have to struggle myself. Haiz.....what a bad mood for today. Yesterday the bamboo told me that he can get the key soon. I was so glad to hear that. But, in other way, do i have time to help in out in decorating his new house? I hope i can. I dont want to miss out the time with him. haha... It was a no plan day. I dont know what should i plan to do today. No surprise day. No sms receive. DULL !!!!!!!!
Friday, December 3, 2010
Jess Lee / 李佳薇 - 隨愛而飛
深夜里 冷冷的空气包围住情绪
窗外的夜景迷乱美丽
想起过去 想起自己
风不停 发丝理不清象我的心
女人的世界该有人安慰
倾听所有 快乐和伤悲
让我随着爱而飞 让我为了爱沉醉
我无法再阻挡寂寞的滋味
我好想在温暖的怀中安歇
让我随着爱而飞 让我为了爱沉醉
就算流泪 就算心碎
我也不会后悔 不会后悔
shock news
3-12-2010 Friday
Today get a break for myself away from my thick notes. Runaway to home and lie on my bed. Switch on my laptop and online. So, suddenly saw yw wrote something : i really hope that i can talk to someone about that. So i was click on her and ask her what is going on. An it was a shock news. She told me that wc want to broke up with her and it was happened two weeks ago. I was so shock. It was a so sudden...... and i am the first person to know it. Omg....what is going wrong here. After a long chat with her, it was surprise that is wc said want to break up with her. ( in my heart, i already knew that). But, it was so unexpected that it happened so fast. They have been together for one and a half year. And i dont know what is the reason why wc will take that action. But, i knew that that sure got a problem with him. Should i go and ask and concern him?
As a friend, i think i should do that. But, how do i open mouth? It was not my concern anymore. Truely said when yw told me that time my first thought was haha u finally find that i am better than her. ( haha...so bad me) Back to topic, it was no way to know how and when he decide to talk that. But, i can said that the problems between them is the think i was think. And being so kepo, i tell yw all my thought. Haiz......why should i do that? Concern them? Erm....i just hope that they still love each other. Just they dont have a good communication. They are too tolerable between each other and yw is too dependent on him. And wc is a stubborn person.( i knew that bc i be with brfore). He dont like mean dont like. He wont change his thought once he had make decision. I just can said that there is no right or wrong in love. The moment he love her, he can tolerate her no matter what and the moment he felt unlike he will complain this and that and ignore her. This go same to the plu relationship. That why it is easy to start a relationship but hard to maintain it.
Yw still care and love wc very much. But, how was wc? But, i believe wc still love yw very much He just need sometime for himself to think and decide. I hope that he could manage back this relationship and hope to hear a good news from them. BEst wishes to WC and YW.
For me personally, it seem like his things is no more my concern. It was like although i still care of him. But, it is a kind of superficial care and is not the feeling of last time. But, a care to a close friend is still important. I think i might go and find him one day and talk. I believe he is suffering now and need someone to counsel and concern him. As their 'dai lou' ( although already retired) i think i should do and have to do him which used to be my little 3rd brother.
Today get a break for myself away from my thick notes. Runaway to home and lie on my bed. Switch on my laptop and online. So, suddenly saw yw wrote something : i really hope that i can talk to someone about that. So i was click on her and ask her what is going on. An it was a shock news. She told me that wc want to broke up with her and it was happened two weeks ago. I was so shock. It was a so sudden...... and i am the first person to know it. Omg....what is going wrong here. After a long chat with her, it was surprise that is wc said want to break up with her. ( in my heart, i already knew that). But, it was so unexpected that it happened so fast. They have been together for one and a half year. And i dont know what is the reason why wc will take that action. But, i knew that that sure got a problem with him. Should i go and ask and concern him?
As a friend, i think i should do that. But, how do i open mouth? It was not my concern anymore. Truely said when yw told me that time my first thought was haha u finally find that i am better than her. ( haha...so bad me) Back to topic, it was no way to know how and when he decide to talk that. But, i can said that the problems between them is the think i was think. And being so kepo, i tell yw all my thought. Haiz......why should i do that? Concern them? Erm....i just hope that they still love each other. Just they dont have a good communication. They are too tolerable between each other and yw is too dependent on him. And wc is a stubborn person.( i knew that bc i be with brfore). He dont like mean dont like. He wont change his thought once he had make decision. I just can said that there is no right or wrong in love. The moment he love her, he can tolerate her no matter what and the moment he felt unlike he will complain this and that and ignore her. This go same to the plu relationship. That why it is easy to start a relationship but hard to maintain it.
Yw still care and love wc very much. But, how was wc? But, i believe wc still love yw very much He just need sometime for himself to think and decide. I hope that he could manage back this relationship and hope to hear a good news from them. BEst wishes to WC and YW.
For me personally, it seem like his things is no more my concern. It was like although i still care of him. But, it is a kind of superficial care and is not the feeling of last time. But, a care to a close friend is still important. I think i might go and find him one day and talk. I believe he is suffering now and need someone to counsel and concern him. As their 'dai lou' ( although already retired) i think i should do and have to do him which used to be my little 3rd brother.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
1st day of december 2010= 1st delivery
Today was my on call day. It was 330pm. Just finish a lecture. Outside is raining heavily. Therefore, i waited until it stop. Time flies and it was 445pm. The duty started at 5pm. Therefore, i was rushing to the wad. Today the heart was waiting to see the first labour. Mentally and physically had prepared. It was the first for me.
The first step into the labour room. It was quite. The a group of people wearing blue in colour was sitting at the counter. It seem like no delivery. It was 630pm. It was 8pm. No delivery at all. Waiting in the room. Patiently wait in the room. Finally, at 9pm start to hear that she is going to deliver.
The heart is palpating. The mind is concentrating. The eye is focusing. The whole body is tense. My mind was shouting " push ! push ! push ! ". Push harder. I can felt that the mother is so hard and difficult. I saw her breath so hard, push so hard, and in the deep of pain. Every people was worried about her. The nurses and dr are encouraging her and give her support. The mother did not give up. That time i just felt like a mother is so strong and desperate when delivery baby. It was thousand hard and suffer than other things. At 9.40pm, a new born baby delivered. It was a baby boy. I can saw that the mother is so release after saw the baby. It was her effort. The feeling is like after suffer from a painful and hard process then you gain the present from the god. It was so wonderful.
The father is waiting outside. He could not sit still. He was worried as i can saw from his face. He is walking up and down. He is patiently wait to see his lovely wife and baby. I can felt that his heart is palpating. The mind is worried. But, he could only do is patiently wait outside the door. It was their first baby. Therefore, i could understand the nervousness and worried he have.
All this are human life cycle. Today a baby boy born to this world and begin his journey as a human. I would thank that first baby i saw was a baby boy. The feeling is like i am the baby father. (stupid imagination). But, i would said that today i get a new point of view and feeling. It is something that i could not imagine how was it previously and today i had experience it.
I could said that mother is the best person in the world and the god had created something that the man would not experience it. Therefore, please love your mother and take care all the mother in the world. I just can said that i really proud of you all !!!!!!
The first step into the labour room. It was quite. The a group of people wearing blue in colour was sitting at the counter. It seem like no delivery. It was 630pm. It was 8pm. No delivery at all. Waiting in the room. Patiently wait in the room. Finally, at 9pm start to hear that she is going to deliver.
The heart is palpating. The mind is concentrating. The eye is focusing. The whole body is tense. My mind was shouting " push ! push ! push ! ". Push harder. I can felt that the mother is so hard and difficult. I saw her breath so hard, push so hard, and in the deep of pain. Every people was worried about her. The nurses and dr are encouraging her and give her support. The mother did not give up. That time i just felt like a mother is so strong and desperate when delivery baby. It was thousand hard and suffer than other things. At 9.40pm, a new born baby delivered. It was a baby boy. I can saw that the mother is so release after saw the baby. It was her effort. The feeling is like after suffer from a painful and hard process then you gain the present from the god. It was so wonderful.
The father is waiting outside. He could not sit still. He was worried as i can saw from his face. He is walking up and down. He is patiently wait to see his lovely wife and baby. I can felt that his heart is palpating. The mind is worried. But, he could only do is patiently wait outside the door. It was their first baby. Therefore, i could understand the nervousness and worried he have.
All this are human life cycle. Today a baby boy born to this world and begin his journey as a human. I would thank that first baby i saw was a baby boy. The feeling is like i am the baby father. (stupid imagination). But, i would said that today i get a new point of view and feeling. It is something that i could not imagine how was it previously and today i had experience it.
I could said that mother is the best person in the world and the god had created something that the man would not experience it. Therefore, please love your mother and take care all the mother in the world. I just can said that i really proud of you all !!!!!!
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