Sunday, June 26, 2011

Special day 24/6/2011

24/6/2011 - Firday
Today is his birthday. This is the first time i celebrate birthday with him. But, i am not good enough in organizing birthday party. So, the birthday just he and me.
I plan to buy him a birthday present. But, i do not know what to buy. SO, in the end there is no present prepared. Haiz......(p/s: i really think and choose for 1 week) but ended up with nothing. SO, just bought a blackforest cake and treating him a meal at secret recipe.
I know it is just a simple meal. But, i hope he like it. We have a long chat that night and figure about our problems. It seem like we have long time did not chat and have such a good talk. Lying on ur abdomen abs and holding ur hands and chatting. Is such a great time and moments. I really feel so good together with you.
I always think so good if i can be with you like this. But, i do understand our status and your concern. SO, dont worry dear. I just want to enjoy the little moment that i can stay with you until 'the day' comes........

Friday, June 24, 2011

Another of half year of 2011

It seem time flies.....half year of 2011 is gone.
And july is coming. Erm....still remember that i have post a plan early of this year. But, it did not stated what i am going to do for the late half year.

So, currently has started my final year journey. It is the last year of my university life. Omg....i cant imagine. It is FINAL YEAR !!! And yet i am so poor and lack of knowledge. Haiz......
Final year is a stressful year. I hope i can pass through all this hard time. It has been 4 weeks from my first day of class. And exam is coming in another 3 more weeks. What a sucks time. Plenty to study, and yet no study and wasting time. I think i really need a proper schedule for myself. And no facebook, no blogger, and no movie for me.

So,
July: Study for exam !!!
August: Raya and Merdeka month. hehe....got 1 week of vacation. Yahoo....!!!
September: Study, study, study. But, wont missed to celebrate birthday with my sister and father.
October: There is 2 exams in this months. Gonna be stress !!!! But, after exam is another 1 weeks vacation. And is going to the last vacation i had.
Nov: Will move back to Serdang and end my life in KL. OMg....shit. back to the quiet and sien place.
DEc: study exam, study exam. No fun at all. No Christmas celebration and new year celebration.

This is some kind of my life now. And for you, i think is bored. But i used to it. So, in between still will find some activities esp the weekend. Besides study, i will spend sometime shopping, leisure and of course exercise. hehe.;)I am still a normal human and people.

That all from today. Good day and good luck everyone.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

i am back....

Dear my friends, i am back to this blog.
I have been quite ometimes away from my blog. It was more than 2 months.
Review back it was on the april. Omg....i have been so long away.
Many things happen and experience for the past two months.

So where should i start? Ermm......think to just give a brief summary. Haha...

For the past two months, i went to united kingdom for my elective study and of course take the chance to travel around UK and Europe. This take me five weeks away from malaysia. Although it is just five weeks, i think this is the most wonderful moment i had experience since i step into my university life. In this five weeks, i have been to London, Scotland, Mancester, Leicester, Paris, Barcelona, Venice, Fluorence, and Rome. I think u guy sure jealous of me.....hahaha....;) And sure grab thousand of photo and some nice handsome caucasian photo.

And for those of looking for caucasian as boy friend, you should migrate to Uk and europe. It is wonderful. The people there are nice and handsome. I should said it is full of handsome guy on the street. They have a nice blue eye, shape and high nose, and hairy face. It is some kind attactive to me. haha....

So which place is the best?
I would said London and Barcelona.

London: people are super dupper nice and friendly. I would said the guys are handsome and gentleman. They are so attractive especially with their work suit.

Barcelona: i like the place. It is nice and organise. It is so relax staying there. Although it is a famous city, you can feel that there is no stress at all. People are nice and friendly. I can said the guy are hot and have nice body shape. They is a nice beach near the city and you will find the view are nice. You definitely do not want to come back and wanted to stay there for life. And i definitely will visit this place with my boyfriend again.

How much i spend?
Erm..i spend around RM7000 for travelling and meal. The air ticket was sponsor by my university. ( cheap right? i think there is no way to go with this price if you paid by your own money)

Who do you go with?
Oh...i went with my coursemate. But, unfortunately i am the only guy. There other 5 are all girl. So, it is quite some bored. But, as a guy i need to be gentleman. So, taking care of them is one of my responsibility la. I still help them to carry beg and stuff when they need. But, sometime feel quite fussy while waiting them. They need to compare so many time when buy things. This cause us lose a lot of time while shopping. As a conclusion, i am truly know that i am gay. haha;)

Will upload some nice photo later.;) Bye.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

exam lo...

It was 12.50am. Going to sleep soon. Exam is coming in the next 8 hours. Will have my paed exam in the next 3 days. This time get strict examiner. Hopefully i wont killed by them la. I want to go UK for my elective and europe trip OOO>>>>>> God bless me. GOod night.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

fail...fail....fail

Is a fail short case i made. Today did not perform a good short case in front of my lecturer. Stop blurring everyday dy.....what wrong with me? haiz....practice everyday still forget the step...... Haiz......fail !!!! she shouted. Not good enough. U missed this missed that...!!!! So basic question also dont know.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

update...update

27-03-2011 (Sunday)

it seem like long time did not update myself here.
so wonder what happen for me this month.
It seem like busy with my life. Is that busy? Err...i think is more relax than busy.
So, kinda preparing for the coming exam again. It left another one more week. personally felt that did not well prepared yet. Have to rush up and burn midnight oil for the 7 days i have now.
so how about the past 3 weeks? Something happen between us. got a small quarrel with him last two weeks. There is some argument between us. And i know it was my fault and i should not behave that way. All the while i had think to end up the relationship for sometimes. But, i could not make it. I do not know what feeling he have. But, i still remember how anger he had and first time scolded by him. Suddenly i felt like he is so hate me. I felt so sorry to him. Maybe i am too troublesome for him.

1 weeks i did not contact him. The ice break when i received a sms from him. But, i still act cold to him and try to resist not to think him anymore. But i could not make it. The mind is all of his face. Finally, i break my rule. I went to see him again. Spent a night with him with a nice melody. The feeling of belonging is still there. I felt warm when he hug me hard. I can see love from his eye. But, i felt like he become more quite nowadays. Is it we are too understand each other until we dont have similar topic? Or we are too busy with our own work? or we dont have similar topic to talk? or other reason ? But, some how sometime quarrel is a good things. It will make feel and refresh what have i think and said. I know sometime i am too troublesome and irritate u . All the while, this is the lesson i had to learn from it.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Sunday, March 6, 2011

A freshy Monday

又是全新的一个星期,上风咳嗽已是第三天。也许是上风的关系,人昨晚没睡好。 但是不知为何人总是满有活力。精神也很好。是不是一个人要斜入一个低沉时期后,人才会懂得放松和不要那么着急。不想去想那么多,也许就不会那么累。人也不那么疲倦。上星期打了一场羽球, 人真个人也放松了,脑袋也清醒了许多。 真喜欢这现在的感觉。要记住哦。

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Friday, March 4, 2011

wc broke off ??

Today was a shock after a 2 day off from the facebook. WC facebook had changed his profile picture. He put his profile pic with another guy. He usual picture with yw had gone. And the status of relationship is gone. Wonder what could happen to him. Is he broke off with yw?

And when i go to see the girl facebook, it changed as well. It was a picture of missing of him. The comment was like console and ask her to be strong. Wonder this is true. I think they broke up lol. Had write a message to him but he dint reply me. Wonder will he reply me or not?

Things which i thought when they first together happened. It was last for one and half year. I dont know what happen to them accually. But, what i know is him. He is still the he i know him. Hope that he will be happy no matter what happen.

Best wishes from me. If u really want someone to talk, pls do find me la. But, i dont think he could read this blog. Haha.

Monday, February 28, 2011

Here come the March....Feb gone.

1st march 2011 Tuesday

Time flies....
Time really flies really really fast
It is march, Feb had gone.
Think back what i've done in Feb, it seem like nothing.

IS half way through the paed posting,
but i felt like i just enter without anything,
no motivation, no spirit to move on,
felt lethargy, and therefore sleep always.

Is it too relax until no motivation?
i don't think so. Where is my spirit?
lost in the middle of no way,
spirit spirit where are you?

Change back to the normal environment,
but still the same.
Who am I, where i am,
was wonder how could i been so long.

Just feel like want to die,
life with no aim, no future,
the mind is empty, the heart is lazy,
the body is piggy, what good thing i have now?

;( . Felt a bad mood today. Silent..........
Hope there is a person can comfort me now.

Friday, February 25, 2011

想你。。。

只想对你说,虽然我们分隔在两个不同的地方,忙碌的生活,疲惫的日子,不能每天相见,闲聊,但我依然想你和爱你。
希望你能一样没变,能过得好好,为你想要做的奋斗和努力。我依然默默地在你背后支持和鼓励。 想你。。。。。。

Saturday, February 12, 2011

A single drop by

13-02-2011 (Sunday)

It was quite some time i did not update my blog. So, just a single drop by here to update myself.

It was a sunny Sunday morning. Yesterday night went to a open house of a friend and cny gathering. Meet some old friend there and chat. And then everyone was asking where is my girl friend? how was her ? And u know lo......what to answer : 'no gf lo', 'break off long time ago', ' aiya....no need so early married de' 'my age of married is at 40 y.o'...and so much excuse and explanation given......talk to much maybe......whatever la... and some of friend guess ' am i gay ' wahahaha...dont care la.....I AM WHO I AM..( BORROW WORD FROM TAKASHI) HEHE...

And it almost come to the end of cny. And i think i shud put off my cny mood and start study. I was abandoned my study since 2 week ago. It was load and tone to catch up back. And i am so sorry to bamboo that i was so playful this two weeks. I knew that he dont like me to be like that and i was so guilty of being so... But, i need to have life as well lol......( i hope he wont mind la) Since last cny, i was gaining weight. Haiz....It's time to lose weight and burn my fat. Bamboo always claim i am fat! fat! fat!. Sometime felt unpleasant when heard the word esp from his mouth. DOnt know why it was so xxxx. ;( Can i loss weight from now? I must find a way to loss my weight . ANy idea friendS?

Tomorow is Valentine day. WIsh all the lover have a wonderful Valentine day and don't forget to give a kiss and hug to your lover. Muack from me to all my friends.

p/s: Scott, glad to know that you flying to adelaide for your study. BEst of wishes and take care. Hope to hear from you soon when you reach Adelaide. And dont forget to take pic of fetish. HAha......good luck my friend.;)

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Reunion dinner and night 2011

2-2-2011 (Wednesday)

It comes the year of rabbit 2011. Today is the reunion night. I am glad that i am able to come back to home to have my reunion dinner this year. ( althought i have not miss de chance). As usual, we have our own reunion dinner at our home. Since my sister is not at home, i help my mum to prepare the dishes this year. And i hope i still able to have this reunion dinner for next year. IS time to have my my dinner. Wish my family have a wonderful chinese new year and i hope i could get much much ang pao this year lol.......hope there is no one to ask me: where is my girl friend ? Still no girl friend? i hate to answer that lol.......haha.......lastly, wish my dear have a happy reunion dinner with his big family lol.....happy cny !!!!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

post exam.....joyful

27-01-2011 (Thursday)

Finally had finish my exam. Yahoo!!!! Had wait this moment for so long. Was so joyful and happy in heart. Bc i had finally... finish the nightmare posting. It is to touch that i could make it finally. i could not dream i can go so far. Haha......

From the first day of posting, i was thinking that it was a tough way to go for this 10 week. and thanks god that i got some case that i know and get benign examiner. I am so happy that the things i work for so hard n long had some repay back. I hope i can pass my exam lol.( i think i sure pass !!! hhaaha...so ego..)

Going to celebrate with my dear tonight lol......Bye. Happy CNY.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

pre-exam ...nervous

26-01-2011 (Wednesday)

currently is 9.36am. my exam is at 10.30am. I am so exciting and nervous. Luckily yesterday was able to sleep and there is no awake during the midnight. It was as usual wake up at 7am. I was waiting...waiting...waiting the time to come. I dont know what to do. I keep drink water and go toilet. I think until now i had went to the toilet for almost 10 time. My cortisol level is high. I cant wait to finish my exam faster. I need to rest and celebrate with the bamboo to move in to his new house and outing with him.

He had help me to make an appointment to see a chinese medicine master for my skin problem. This was postponed by me for so many time and this time i could not runaway since it really bother me so much now. This few days it was a serious attack and make me felt so tired and itchy. But, i hope later during my exam it does not bother me much. Bc everytime i nervous, the red dot dot will come and make me felt so uncomfortable.

Errr....what case i will get? who is my examiner leh? I wish i get a good examiner and good pt and case for me. Everything come with a good purpose....dont forget with this slogan la.....keep remind me and hope it can help me during my exam. Tomorow will be the last day and i am glad that i am the first group to go for the exam. I hate to wait. And i so glad that i can finish it earlier tomorow.

is time for me to go....will post the post exam section after my exam finish la.....best of luck to myself. God bless me lol.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

考试前的不好预兆?

22-01-11 (星期六)

两天后,就是考试了。 可是既然在这时候生病。天啊, 请快快让我好起来。我不想抱病去考试啊。一大清早, 就不停的打喷嚏, 鼻水流个凄厉哗啦, 鼻子也给擦红了。再来一个头痛,我的妈呀,少许发烧,头晕晕的,一定是感冒了。便马上吃了两粒‘神丸’(简称-万能的panadol)头痛好了,伤风却不停的流,也只好吃伤风药了。过不久肚子开始涨了一定是消化不良。早餐吃了一个裸米鸡后,就开始觉得胀胀的,现在是难呼吸了。从来都没觉得那么的难受。 咳。。。。难道这是考试前的不好预兆?

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

support !!!

11/1/11 (Tuesday)

i need support. Mentally support, physically support, emotionally support, and finanicially support. Without support, i think i could not live in this world.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

压力

人生为什么会有压力? 工作压力,经济压力,读书压力,考试压力,想请问何时才能把这一切的压力抛弃呢! 好烦好烦 !!!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

喝醉

昨天又是我另一个兄弟结婚的日子。短短两个月,两个兄弟以成家立室,又到他们人生的另一个阶段。
晚上的喜宴,难免不了有敬酒,再加上我这般兄弟一定不会放过他。我想这是我这么久以来喝得最多的一次。
喜宴后,还有second round。 omg...这班兄弟真能喝。我这次醉了。我那昏昏的头,傻傻的笑,吐出了不少真言,还好我还是清醒的。(不过,十个人喝醉都说自己是清醒, 那我是清醒还是醉呢?)(还好没把我的性向说出来)。

结束时已是两点钟,各各都喝醉了, 不过让我感觉到的是这份兄弟情。无论你多么的聪明,无论你多么的蠢,无论我们以前吵过架,我们还可以坐下高谈阔论,有说有笑,你扶我我扶你。我也非常高兴有这般兄弟。

但酒后就是头痛的来临。 一大清早起床时,头真的好痛,那酒精的力量还在我的血液中流尽,身体散发出酒后的热能,连起床后的第一撒尿都有酒精的味道。这真是自讨苦吃!!!还好的是今天的补课取消了,好让我能好好休息。

(真希望爱人能在我身旁按摩我那疼痛的头。。。。。。

Saturday, January 1, 2011

陪伴

突然想起这个主题。 人生一定要有些陪伴才能过日子。我的陪伴又有什么呢?
我的竹子以成为我脑海中的陪伴,他的影子将是我起床的第一个画面。
星光大道这节目也成为我每个星期的陪伴。三年的节目七届的选手我都有跟进。所唱过的歌真让我陶醉和心碎。
陶子姐的主持真棒。 能开道我这脆弱的心灵。 希望这节目能永远都有,让更多爱唱歌的人为想听唱歌人唱出他们心里的感受和感伤。
至于家人当然是我的精神支柱。没有他们的陪伴我想我已经沦陷天涯,无影无踪。
最后希望老天爷能给我力量的活下去,和给我一斯斯的好运,为我所努力的事能顺利完成,梦想能达到。

2011 planning

A brand new year, a new beginning.
It seem like i haven't plan my schedule yet for the coming whole year.
Err......i was so blurrr what i am going to do again.

Jan : It will be a study month as exam is nearby.
Feb: prepare and celebrate the CNY.
March: it will be a struggle month as well as exam is nearby.
April: prepare and going to UK for 5 weeks.
May: celebrating my birthday in UK......and planning to travel to other place with my lover.
June: started my final year.
July - December : Impending to think and plan. haha.....

It seem like my life is just study and travel. Hope they will be more happen things to be share.

1st anniversary

02-01-2011 Sunday

One year ago, i started this blog And it is already one year that this blog ad established. Happy 1st anniversary to my blog.

SO, what the hope for my blog again? I think there wont be much changes. In stead it willl be the same and i will write all about my happiness and sadness in here. It is my daily and secret. Recently i found out that we have two things in our life- reality and dream. Some people will always work hard to make their dream become reality. But, sometime dream is just a dream and it could not become a true reality.

Dreaming is a some like part of life. I like to dream some nasty things. I like to dream how good if i can live with my partner in a mountain with sea view and having a breeze and fresh air. Having tea in the mountain with sunny weather but not too hot. Our little puppy is accompany us and we had our own time. Lying on the grasses and hugging the lover like in the movie of 'brokeback mountain'.It is such wonderful. And it is just a dream.