update...update

27-03-2011 (Sunday)

it seem like long time did not update myself here.
so wonder what happen for me this month.
It seem like busy with my life. Is that busy? Err...i think is more relax than busy.
So, kinda preparing for the coming exam again. It left another one more week. personally felt that did not well prepared yet. Have to rush up and burn midnight oil for the 7 days i have now.
so how about the past 3 weeks? Something happen between us. got a small quarrel with him last two weeks. There is some argument between us. And i know it was my fault and i should not behave that way. All the while i had think to end up the relationship for sometimes. But, i could not make it. I do not know what feeling he have. But, i still remember how anger he had and first time scolded by him. Suddenly i felt like he is so hate me. I felt so sorry to him. Maybe i am too troublesome for him.

1 weeks i did not contact him. The ice break when i received a sms from him. But, i still act cold to him and try to resist not to think him anymore. But i could not make it. The mind is all of his face. Finally, i break my rule. I went to see him again. Spent a night with him with a nice melody. The feeling of belonging is still there. I felt warm when he hug me hard. I can see love from his eye. But, i felt like he become more quite nowadays. Is it we are too understand each other until we dont have similar topic? Or we are too busy with our own work? or we dont have similar topic to talk? or other reason ? But, some how sometime quarrel is a good things. It will make feel and refresh what have i think and said. I know sometime i am too troublesome and irritate u . All the while, this is the lesson i had to learn from it.