Saturday, July 31, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
disappointed week......
Here come to Friday,
but this was a disappointed week,
have done nothing in this week
had made my dear sad.
Sorry, i am sorry,
i doesn't mean want to hurt you,
i know you are angry,
because of my laziness.
I have no idea,
my mood up and down,
i am fear, scare, anxious,
i dont like that feeling.
Where is my confidence?
where is my motivation?
where is my discipline?
I am distress.
I just want to back home to refresh,
I just miss my mum, dad and sis,
i dont really want you to be alone,
but i have to be cruel to you to let you alone.
My heart was broken every time you tell me you are sad,
my heart was unstable when i decide to go home,
my heart was crying after finish the conversation with you in the phone,
It was hard for me not to be with you.
receive a love email from you on wednesday,
heart was damn happy and joy,
no word can describe the feeling,
but will read and remember it until the end of my life.
12.28pm noon (low mood)
but this was a disappointed week,
have done nothing in this week
had made my dear sad.
Sorry, i am sorry,
i doesn't mean want to hurt you,
i know you are angry,
because of my laziness.
I have no idea,
my mood up and down,
i am fear, scare, anxious,
i dont like that feeling.
Where is my confidence?
where is my motivation?
where is my discipline?
I am distress.
I just want to back home to refresh,
I just miss my mum, dad and sis,
i dont really want you to be alone,
but i have to be cruel to you to let you alone.
My heart was broken every time you tell me you are sad,
my heart was unstable when i decide to go home,
my heart was crying after finish the conversation with you in the phone,
It was hard for me not to be with you.
receive a love email from you on wednesday,
heart was damn happy and joy,
no word can describe the feeling,
but will read and remember it until the end of my life.
12.28pm noon (low mood)
Friday, July 23, 2010
i am sorry......
i am sorry to let you wait,
half an hour, ten minutes,
is my fault,
bc of not understand you much yet.
waiting for you nearly one an half hour,
planning for our activities,
but just half of it,
half off it gone.
sitting on ur table,
writting using ur laptop,
missing you for the whole week,
but, come to a confuse day.
i am sorry.
i know i always keep word and dint said out
but i scare you feel i irritating
silence will be the best.
two month been together,
a dinner celebrating at manhattan fish,
but wonder you know that or not,
a disappointed heart.
i know i shouldn't hope that much,
i know all the things u cant give,
i know, i know, i know,
but...... i hope to have.
that all.
half an hour, ten minutes,
is my fault,
bc of not understand you much yet.
waiting for you nearly one an half hour,
planning for our activities,
but just half of it,
half off it gone.
sitting on ur table,
writting using ur laptop,
missing you for the whole week,
but, come to a confuse day.
i am sorry.
i know i always keep word and dint said out
but i scare you feel i irritating
silence will be the best.
two month been together,
a dinner celebrating at manhattan fish,
but wonder you know that or not,
a disappointed heart.
i know i shouldn't hope that much,
i know all the things u cant give,
i know, i know, i know,
but...... i hope to have.
that all.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Unmotivated
A cool and rainy morning.
Make me feel want to lie on the bed for the whole morning.
My leg was so heavy to step out of the room.
The time was flew every second, minutes and hours.
It was half pass eight now.
I still sitting in front of the laptop.
Yesterday was upset by a drug addict.
Now my confident still in the deep of the sea.
Sometime, i felt lonely.
Where is my friend.
At least i know he is always be with me,
and i still can survive until now.
wish everyday will be fine,
wish everyday will be smooth,
wish the pain in every part of my body gone away,
and i can have full of energy and motivated.
Make me feel want to lie on the bed for the whole morning.
My leg was so heavy to step out of the room.
The time was flew every second, minutes and hours.
It was half pass eight now.
I still sitting in front of the laptop.
Yesterday was upset by a drug addict.
Now my confident still in the deep of the sea.
Sometime, i felt lonely.
Where is my friend.
At least i know he is always be with me,
and i still can survive until now.
wish everyday will be fine,
wish everyday will be smooth,
wish the pain in every part of my body gone away,
and i can have full of energy and motivated.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
SPECIAL FOR YOU...
HE NOT FEELING WELL,
BUT, HE CANT REST.
HE HAVE MANY WORK WAITING FOR HIM TO DO,
BUT, I CANT HELP HIM MUCH.
HE HAVE TO ASK HIS LOAN OF HIS NEW HOUSE,
BUT, I CANT ACCOMPANY HIM TO THE BANK.
HE HAVE TO THINK HOW TO RENOVATE OF HIS HOUSE,
BUT, I DON'T REALLY HAVE TIME TO SIT DOWN AND DISCUSS WITH HIM.
I HOPE HE GET WELL SOON.
I HOPE HE CAN FINISH HIS WORK AS HE WISH.
I HOPE HE CAN REST EARLY.
I HOPE HE CAN HAPPY ALWAYS.
I HOPE HE COULD TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF.
AND
I WILL TAKE CARE MYSELF
I WILL CONCENTRATE AND FOCUS ON MY STUDY
I WONT MAKE YOU WORRY OF ME
I WILL MISS YOU EVERY SECOND, MINUTE AND HOURS.
BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.
TAKE CARE MY DEAR...AND SPECIAL FOR YOU.
BUT, HE CANT REST.
HE HAVE MANY WORK WAITING FOR HIM TO DO,
BUT, I CANT HELP HIM MUCH.
HE HAVE TO ASK HIS LOAN OF HIS NEW HOUSE,
BUT, I CANT ACCOMPANY HIM TO THE BANK.
HE HAVE TO THINK HOW TO RENOVATE OF HIS HOUSE,
BUT, I DON'T REALLY HAVE TIME TO SIT DOWN AND DISCUSS WITH HIM.
I HOPE HE GET WELL SOON.
I HOPE HE CAN FINISH HIS WORK AS HE WISH.
I HOPE HE CAN REST EARLY.
I HOPE HE CAN HAPPY ALWAYS.
I HOPE HE COULD TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF.
AND
I WILL TAKE CARE MYSELF
I WILL CONCENTRATE AND FOCUS ON MY STUDY
I WONT MAKE YOU WORRY OF ME
I WILL MISS YOU EVERY SECOND, MINUTE AND HOURS.
BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.
TAKE CARE MY DEAR...AND SPECIAL FOR YOU.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
背對背擁抱
你我在一间小房间，听着这首歌，我紧紧地抱着你，你近近的靠着我，好怀念那感觉。
背對背擁抱 詞：林怡鳳 曲：林俊傑
話總說不清楚 該怎麼明瞭
一字一句像圈套
舊帳總翻不完 誰無理取鬧
你的雙手甩開剛好的微妙
然後戰火再燃燒
我們背對背擁抱
濫用沉默在咆哮
愛情來不及變老
葬送在烽火的玩笑
轉載來自
我們背對背擁抱
真話兜著圈子亂亂繞
只是想讓我知道
只是想讓你知道 愛的警告(這警告)
我不要一直到 形同陌路變成自找
既然可以擁抱 就不要輕易放掉
背對背擁抱 詞：林怡鳳 曲：林俊傑
話總說不清楚 該怎麼明瞭
一字一句像圈套
舊帳總翻不完 誰無理取鬧
你的雙手甩開剛好的微妙
然後戰火再燃燒
我們背對背擁抱
濫用沉默在咆哮
愛情來不及變老
葬送在烽火的玩笑
轉載來自
我們背對背擁抱
真話兜著圈子亂亂繞
只是想讓我知道
只是想讓你知道 愛的警告(這警告)
我不要一直到 形同陌路變成自找
既然可以擁抱 就不要輕易放掉
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Headache morning.....
15-7-2010 9.37am
Today was a bad morning. Cant sleep well for the whole night. It was disturbed by the alarm. Ringing the whole night. Then, nightmare was wonder around my mind. Heard the sound of the schizophrenic people talking to me. Wonder why the night was so terrible?
My heart felt uncomfortable. WOnder to phone him this morning to tell him all this. But, fail to do that. YEsterday, he told me the same thing again. And i know that there will be something wrong again. Is he going to leave me soon? Is he trying to give signal to me that he dont want me? or am i too troublesome him and cause him irritating?
This morning i found out that what happen if one day i really dont have him anymore. I will feel like empty like this morning. I cant concentrate to listen to my lec this morning. The mind is keep thinking of him. But, not dare to phone him bc i know that he will leave me one day and i want to train to live by myself. But....the heart feel want to cry. Tearing running around my eye......It was hard.
How? i really dont know............
Today was a bad morning. Cant sleep well for the whole night. It was disturbed by the alarm. Ringing the whole night. Then, nightmare was wonder around my mind. Heard the sound of the schizophrenic people talking to me. Wonder why the night was so terrible?
My heart felt uncomfortable. WOnder to phone him this morning to tell him all this. But, fail to do that. YEsterday, he told me the same thing again. And i know that there will be something wrong again. Is he going to leave me soon? Is he trying to give signal to me that he dont want me? or am i too troublesome him and cause him irritating?
This morning i found out that what happen if one day i really dont have him anymore. I will feel like empty like this morning. I cant concentrate to listen to my lec this morning. The mind is keep thinking of him. But, not dare to phone him bc i know that he will leave me one day and i want to train to live by myself. But....the heart feel want to cry. Tearing running around my eye......It was hard.
How? i really dont know............
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Missing him
Currently sitting at MCD at my town. The TV is showing Paraguay VS Sepanyol... Was waiting my book where send to photostat shop... get the chance to update my blog... and start to think of him...i think he is doing his exercise at a park now...
He was back to his home town for 4 days. He took leave and back to his house to do his work. He was away and back to his usual life. Back to the responsible life he need to...
It was 1 and a half month we know each other. He was a nice and concern guy. Although there is a gap between our age, but we can talk and is like know each other very well ( although just a few meet). He concern and care me which let me felt the warmess from him. He willing to listen to my problem and teach me how to solve it. He give me alot of idea and support me as well. Is all this will last Long? Is all this create by god? Is this the destiny we have since the last decade ? The was no answer of it.
He always tell me not to love him. He cant give what i want at last. He ask me find a better guy that can last Long. ( and most of the time i hate him to tell this to me). But, i know that he told me all this is for the good of me. He want me to have a better life later. He don't want me to get hurt. ( and i really dont know how to do.)
i just know that currently i felt happy to have him and want to share with him of my everything.
Are we together Now？ Can i consider he is my dear? BC there are no promise between us. and i dont know how long we will last. But, as he said he will treat me good where the time we are together. and honest to be said i already fall in love with him and treat him as my bf. Am i stupid? I really dont know. I just felt that it was great when there is a people is care, concern, and be with him when he felt empty.
I could said that is lucky to know him. It is hard to find a good and nice guy like him. It is my pleasure to know him. Want to said a THOUSAND THANK TO HIM for all the giving, sacrifices, concern and care. And i promise him to study hard, live happy and wont think so much.
LOVe you.
He was back to his home town for 4 days. He took leave and back to his house to do his work. He was away and back to his usual life. Back to the responsible life he need to...
It was 1 and a half month we know each other. He was a nice and concern guy. Although there is a gap between our age, but we can talk and is like know each other very well ( although just a few meet). He concern and care me which let me felt the warmess from him. He willing to listen to my problem and teach me how to solve it. He give me alot of idea and support me as well. Is all this will last Long? Is all this create by god? Is this the destiny we have since the last decade ? The was no answer of it.
He always tell me not to love him. He cant give what i want at last. He ask me find a better guy that can last Long. ( and most of the time i hate him to tell this to me). But, i know that he told me all this is for the good of me. He want me to have a better life later. He don't want me to get hurt. ( and i really dont know how to do.)
i just know that currently i felt happy to have him and want to share with him of my everything.
Are we together Now？ Can i consider he is my dear? BC there are no promise between us. and i dont know how long we will last. But, as he said he will treat me good where the time we are together. and honest to be said i already fall in love with him and treat him as my bf. Am i stupid? I really dont know. I just felt that it was great when there is a people is care, concern, and be with him when he felt empty.
I could said that is lucky to know him. It is hard to find a good and nice guy like him. It is my pleasure to know him. Want to said a THOUSAND THANK TO HIM for all the giving, sacrifices, concern and care. And i promise him to study hard, live happy and wont think so much.
LOVe you.
8D7N Shanghai....
16 June 2010 - 23 June 2010 (Shanghai)
Me and family went to Shanghai for our family trip. I would said that this is my first time travelled to oversea. It was excited and i was so lucky have the chance to travel to shanghai at the age of 23. Actually we decide to travel to shanghai because of the shanghai expo. The trip was booked early in the March during the Matta fair.
So overall the trip was great. The food are delicious and the hotel given are all 4 star ( as in malaysia is like 3 star). But, i was satisfied. Out trip consist of 18 people. But unluckily there was no lengzai in my trip. (haiz....)
Shanghai is a big and developed city. The first impression to me is high building everywhere around the city. It was far far more developed than Malaysia. ( when can Malaysia be like shanghai?....Malaysian should learn from the chinese. ) But, i dont like the people in shanghai. Could said that the people there are rude and selfish. They dint really care and kind to people. The traffic in shanghai is terrible. It is like 'no law on road'.( haaha....i saw many car make a u-turn in the middle of the cross road....even our bus driver do that....haahaa....how dare if this happen in mas, i think there is a big accident will happened.
har...u should sure will ask me...how abt the guy? how there look like? haaha....i would said that if u like slim and fair guy, u should go to shanghai and find. haaha...most of the guy there are slim and fair. I could said that they have a nice body as well...... Lengzai everywhere...... haaha...so my eye was busy so,of the time....(heehe). 杭州 guy is the kind and nice, 无锡 guy is rich and handsome,上海 guy is stylish. (but still malaysia guy is the best !!!) hahaa....
so, below include some photo taken on my trip.
Me and family went to Shanghai for our family trip. I would said that this is my first time travelled to oversea. It was excited and i was so lucky have the chance to travel to shanghai at the age of 23. Actually we decide to travel to shanghai because of the shanghai expo. The trip was booked early in the March during the Matta fair.
So overall the trip was great. The food are delicious and the hotel given are all 4 star ( as in malaysia is like 3 star). But, i was satisfied. Out trip consist of 18 people. But unluckily there was no lengzai in my trip. (haiz....)
Shanghai is a big and developed city. The first impression to me is high building everywhere around the city. It was far far more developed than Malaysia. ( when can Malaysia be like shanghai?....Malaysian should learn from the chinese. ) But, i dont like the people in shanghai. Could said that the people there are rude and selfish. They dint really care and kind to people. The traffic in shanghai is terrible. It is like 'no law on road'.( haaha....i saw many car make a u-turn in the middle of the cross road....even our bus driver do that....haahaa....how dare if this happen in mas, i think there is a big accident will happened.
har...u should sure will ask me...how abt the guy? how there look like? haaha....i would said that if u like slim and fair guy, u should go to shanghai and find. haaha...most of the guy there are slim and fair. I could said that they have a nice body as well...... Lengzai everywhere...... haaha...so my eye was busy so,of the time....(heehe). 杭州 guy is the kind and nice, 无锡 guy is rich and handsome,上海 guy is stylish. (but still malaysia guy is the best !!!) hahaa....
so, below include some photo taken on my trip.
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