30-12-2010 2304H
One more day 2010 is ending. I would said that year 2010 will be a year where i changed and experience most. Review back the past one year, many things happened. I just can said that i had found myself and get out from there. It seem like it would not happen but it happens.
January - the start of this blog and start writing all my secret in this blog.
Feb - Run out of the blog but it seem like he was not happy and end up with an unhappy relationship.
March - He felt guilty of being so bad to a girl and started to blame himself and start turn out from the circle.
April - He started to find back himself and start to join and know the plu group.
May - He had know feel plu friends and started to search and hang around with them. And finally he found someone that he can relied on.
June - Went to Shanghai Expo and first time travel to Shanghai, China.
July - Had recovered much more and build back his confidence because the presence of him.
August - In a love mood.
September - Had obtain grade A and highest score in his exam.
October - Had went off to the jungle for 5 weeks and stay the life of orang kampung.
November - Fetching the lover to airport and experience lost in the way back from airport. haha.......;) drive in a unknown place.
Disember - Struggling with busy life and prepare and helping the lover in renovating the new house.
And it seem like many others story havent include such as sky wedding, argueing with father, discriminating myself from other friend, depress and low mood at the first few month, had my first sex experience, and the most important is i find back my happiness.
although it seem everything changed so fast. I had learn many things in this year and gain myself to be more mature. I hope for year 2011, everything will be fine and the happiness is still maintain. Just wish that i could same my precious time with the people i love and i care and i concern. Tomorrow is the last day of 2010. And it is glad that i can spend my time with the lover and family. ( thanks for the malaysia football team where they won the Susuki cup - as the PM announced tmw is a public holiday ..yahooo) So wish my parents, dear, plu friend esp wong, lee, jason, kkling, and scotty , my heng dai brothers, my old school friend, and my coursemate all happy always and wish all have a happy year eve.
Best regards,
last blog in 2010.
p/s : Today went out to shop with the dear and bought two nice underwear as my own gift to celebrate the Christmas and new year. Haha......
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
Guilty of my laziness
21-12-2010 (Tuesday)
It was a lazy week. I did not study for few days. I wonder why i could not have the spirit anymore. I am so guilty of it. Yesterday, it was a unproductive day as well. YEsterday, scolded by 2 lectures and the mood was unfavourable. Therefore, i went to find the bamboo and felt so wonderful during the time together. The day so tiring. Get on bed at 10pm. At first just want to have a 15 minutes rest but haiz....cant wake up and when i wake up, it was the next day. Everyone is celebrating christmas with his lover, everyone is enjoying their holiday, everyone is clearing their leave, and can i enjoy and relax myself? But, the guiltiness will always stand besides me if i become lazy. Which should i choose?
It was a lazy week. I did not study for few days. I wonder why i could not have the spirit anymore. I am so guilty of it. Yesterday, it was a unproductive day as well. YEsterday, scolded by 2 lectures and the mood was unfavourable. Therefore, i went to find the bamboo and felt so wonderful during the time together. The day so tiring. Get on bed at 10pm. At first just want to have a 15 minutes rest but haiz....cant wake up and when i wake up, it was the next day. Everyone is celebrating christmas with his lover, everyone is enjoying their holiday, everyone is clearing their leave, and can i enjoy and relax myself? But, the guiltiness will always stand besides me if i become lazy. Which should i choose?
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Tired
8-12-2010 (Wednesday)
Today i felt tired and exhausted. It was so sleepy. It was a no mood day. I felt so bored with my life. It is like repeating everyday with the same thing. It was so dull. Today i dont feel want to wake up in the morning. I force myself to wake up which i dont willing to do. I hate december. Bc it is a holiday mood for me. Now, i have to struggle myself. Haiz.....what a bad mood for today. Yesterday the bamboo told me that he can get the key soon. I was so glad to hear that. But, in other way, do i have time to help in out in decorating his new house? I hope i can. I dont want to miss out the time with him. haha... It was a no plan day. I dont know what should i plan to do today. No surprise day. No sms receive. DULL !!!!!!!!
Today i felt tired and exhausted. It was so sleepy. It was a no mood day. I felt so bored with my life. It is like repeating everyday with the same thing. It was so dull. Today i dont feel want to wake up in the morning. I force myself to wake up which i dont willing to do. I hate december. Bc it is a holiday mood for me. Now, i have to struggle myself. Haiz.....what a bad mood for today. Yesterday the bamboo told me that he can get the key soon. I was so glad to hear that. But, in other way, do i have time to help in out in decorating his new house? I hope i can. I dont want to miss out the time with him. haha... It was a no plan day. I dont know what should i plan to do today. No surprise day. No sms receive. DULL !!!!!!!!
Friday, December 3, 2010
Jess Lee / 李佳薇 - 隨愛而飛
深夜里 冷冷的空气包围住情绪
窗外的夜景迷乱美丽
想起过去 想起自己
风不停 发丝理不清象我的心
女人的世界该有人安慰
倾听所有 快乐和伤悲
让我随着爱而飞 让我为了爱沉醉
我无法再阻挡寂寞的滋味
我好想在温暖的怀中安歇
让我随着爱而飞 让我为了爱沉醉
就算流泪 就算心碎
我也不会后悔 不会后悔
shock news
3-12-2010 Friday
Today get a break for myself away from my thick notes. Runaway to home and lie on my bed. Switch on my laptop and online. So, suddenly saw yw wrote something : i really hope that i can talk to someone about that. So i was click on her and ask her what is going on. An it was a shock news. She told me that wc want to broke up with her and it was happened two weeks ago. I was so shock. It was a so sudden...... and i am the first person to know it. Omg....what is going wrong here. After a long chat with her, it was surprise that is wc said want to break up with her. ( in my heart, i already knew that). But, it was so unexpected that it happened so fast. They have been together for one and a half year. And i dont know what is the reason why wc will take that action. But, i knew that that sure got a problem with him. Should i go and ask and concern him?
As a friend, i think i should do that. But, how do i open mouth? It was not my concern anymore. Truely said when yw told me that time my first thought was haha u finally find that i am better than her. ( haha...so bad me) Back to topic, it was no way to know how and when he decide to talk that. But, i can said that the problems between them is the think i was think. And being so kepo, i tell yw all my thought. Haiz......why should i do that? Concern them? Erm....i just hope that they still love each other. Just they dont have a good communication. They are too tolerable between each other and yw is too dependent on him. And wc is a stubborn person.( i knew that bc i be with brfore). He dont like mean dont like. He wont change his thought once he had make decision. I just can said that there is no right or wrong in love. The moment he love her, he can tolerate her no matter what and the moment he felt unlike he will complain this and that and ignore her. This go same to the plu relationship. That why it is easy to start a relationship but hard to maintain it.
Yw still care and love wc very much. But, how was wc? But, i believe wc still love yw very much He just need sometime for himself to think and decide. I hope that he could manage back this relationship and hope to hear a good news from them. BEst wishes to WC and YW.
For me personally, it seem like his things is no more my concern. It was like although i still care of him. But, it is a kind of superficial care and is not the feeling of last time. But, a care to a close friend is still important. I think i might go and find him one day and talk. I believe he is suffering now and need someone to counsel and concern him. As their 'dai lou' ( although already retired) i think i should do and have to do him which used to be my little 3rd brother.
Today get a break for myself away from my thick notes. Runaway to home and lie on my bed. Switch on my laptop and online. So, suddenly saw yw wrote something : i really hope that i can talk to someone about that. So i was click on her and ask her what is going on. An it was a shock news. She told me that wc want to broke up with her and it was happened two weeks ago. I was so shock. It was a so sudden...... and i am the first person to know it. Omg....what is going wrong here. After a long chat with her, it was surprise that is wc said want to break up with her. ( in my heart, i already knew that). But, it was so unexpected that it happened so fast. They have been together for one and a half year. And i dont know what is the reason why wc will take that action. But, i knew that that sure got a problem with him. Should i go and ask and concern him?
As a friend, i think i should do that. But, how do i open mouth? It was not my concern anymore. Truely said when yw told me that time my first thought was haha u finally find that i am better than her. ( haha...so bad me) Back to topic, it was no way to know how and when he decide to talk that. But, i can said that the problems between them is the think i was think. And being so kepo, i tell yw all my thought. Haiz......why should i do that? Concern them? Erm....i just hope that they still love each other. Just they dont have a good communication. They are too tolerable between each other and yw is too dependent on him. And wc is a stubborn person.( i knew that bc i be with brfore). He dont like mean dont like. He wont change his thought once he had make decision. I just can said that there is no right or wrong in love. The moment he love her, he can tolerate her no matter what and the moment he felt unlike he will complain this and that and ignore her. This go same to the plu relationship. That why it is easy to start a relationship but hard to maintain it.
Yw still care and love wc very much. But, how was wc? But, i believe wc still love yw very much He just need sometime for himself to think and decide. I hope that he could manage back this relationship and hope to hear a good news from them. BEst wishes to WC and YW.
For me personally, it seem like his things is no more my concern. It was like although i still care of him. But, it is a kind of superficial care and is not the feeling of last time. But, a care to a close friend is still important. I think i might go and find him one day and talk. I believe he is suffering now and need someone to counsel and concern him. As their 'dai lou' ( although already retired) i think i should do and have to do him which used to be my little 3rd brother.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
1st day of december 2010= 1st delivery
Today was my on call day. It was 330pm. Just finish a lecture. Outside is raining heavily. Therefore, i waited until it stop. Time flies and it was 445pm. The duty started at 5pm. Therefore, i was rushing to the wad. Today the heart was waiting to see the first labour. Mentally and physically had prepared. It was the first for me.
The first step into the labour room. It was quite. The a group of people wearing blue in colour was sitting at the counter. It seem like no delivery. It was 630pm. It was 8pm. No delivery at all. Waiting in the room. Patiently wait in the room. Finally, at 9pm start to hear that she is going to deliver.
The heart is palpating. The mind is concentrating. The eye is focusing. The whole body is tense. My mind was shouting " push ! push ! push ! ". Push harder. I can felt that the mother is so hard and difficult. I saw her breath so hard, push so hard, and in the deep of pain. Every people was worried about her. The nurses and dr are encouraging her and give her support. The mother did not give up. That time i just felt like a mother is so strong and desperate when delivery baby. It was thousand hard and suffer than other things. At 9.40pm, a new born baby delivered. It was a baby boy. I can saw that the mother is so release after saw the baby. It was her effort. The feeling is like after suffer from a painful and hard process then you gain the present from the god. It was so wonderful.
The father is waiting outside. He could not sit still. He was worried as i can saw from his face. He is walking up and down. He is patiently wait to see his lovely wife and baby. I can felt that his heart is palpating. The mind is worried. But, he could only do is patiently wait outside the door. It was their first baby. Therefore, i could understand the nervousness and worried he have.
All this are human life cycle. Today a baby boy born to this world and begin his journey as a human. I would thank that first baby i saw was a baby boy. The feeling is like i am the baby father. (stupid imagination). But, i would said that today i get a new point of view and feeling. It is something that i could not imagine how was it previously and today i had experience it.
I could said that mother is the best person in the world and the god had created something that the man would not experience it. Therefore, please love your mother and take care all the mother in the world. I just can said that i really proud of you all !!!!!!
The first step into the labour room. It was quite. The a group of people wearing blue in colour was sitting at the counter. It seem like no delivery. It was 630pm. It was 8pm. No delivery at all. Waiting in the room. Patiently wait in the room. Finally, at 9pm start to hear that she is going to deliver.
The heart is palpating. The mind is concentrating. The eye is focusing. The whole body is tense. My mind was shouting " push ! push ! push ! ". Push harder. I can felt that the mother is so hard and difficult. I saw her breath so hard, push so hard, and in the deep of pain. Every people was worried about her. The nurses and dr are encouraging her and give her support. The mother did not give up. That time i just felt like a mother is so strong and desperate when delivery baby. It was thousand hard and suffer than other things. At 9.40pm, a new born baby delivered. It was a baby boy. I can saw that the mother is so release after saw the baby. It was her effort. The feeling is like after suffer from a painful and hard process then you gain the present from the god. It was so wonderful.
The father is waiting outside. He could not sit still. He was worried as i can saw from his face. He is walking up and down. He is patiently wait to see his lovely wife and baby. I can felt that his heart is palpating. The mind is worried. But, he could only do is patiently wait outside the door. It was their first baby. Therefore, i could understand the nervousness and worried he have.
All this are human life cycle. Today a baby boy born to this world and begin his journey as a human. I would thank that first baby i saw was a baby boy. The feeling is like i am the baby father. (stupid imagination). But, i would said that today i get a new point of view and feeling. It is something that i could not imagine how was it previously and today i had experience it.
I could said that mother is the best person in the world and the god had created something that the man would not experience it. Therefore, please love your mother and take care all the mother in the world. I just can said that i really proud of you all !!!!!!
Sunday, November 28, 2010
sky wedding...
28-11-2010. Sunday
It was sky wedding today. I was invited to his wedding dinner at Flamingo Hotel Ampang. He is the first close friend who sent me 'red egg bomb'(in chinese) to me. We are friends since secondary school. I close with him because we were scout during our secondary school. 5 years of scout = forever friend. And today is his big day, nevertheless me and scout gang is his heng dai lol. I still remember that we were chasing on the same girl in the next class during form 4. And today he is married and i was still wondering around and chasing my destiny. Haaha....life is really so unpredictable.
About the dinner, firstly, the food are just normal but not that delicious. The whole event at the beginning, it was so dull. I think the mc is not good in controlling all the things lo. They should find a more experience person incharge lol. The most stupid things is they ask people to go to stage to have games. Omg...first saw this childish things happen in wedding dinner. They should have karaoke ma.....so that wont be so dull. But finally the environment was brought up by us. Wedding dinner sure have 'yam seng' section lo. So be part of the hengdai, first time joining and walk to each table to shout 'yam seng'. Haah...this is the first experience i have. It was fun. (The feeling is like i am the one who married).....hahaa....But, during our turn, i was so touch. First time i felt that the scout i have 6 year ago was still here. Although everyone was as different place after graduate, but the spirit was still there. We shout our yells which we did it during our young scout training. And today we were shout again. I felt that this is the last long friend that i going to have until i die. I really have this best of friends in my life. First time i felt that i really have a bunch of best friend in my life which can help and rely on. And i know it will last forever.......
Lastly, wish sky and victoria (his wife) have a happy wedding day and wait to here a good news from you la. Best wishes.
It was sky wedding today. I was invited to his wedding dinner at Flamingo Hotel Ampang. He is the first close friend who sent me 'red egg bomb'(in chinese) to me. We are friends since secondary school. I close with him because we were scout during our secondary school. 5 years of scout = forever friend. And today is his big day, nevertheless me and scout gang is his heng dai lol. I still remember that we were chasing on the same girl in the next class during form 4. And today he is married and i was still wondering around and chasing my destiny. Haaha....life is really so unpredictable.
About the dinner, firstly, the food are just normal but not that delicious. The whole event at the beginning, it was so dull. I think the mc is not good in controlling all the things lo. They should find a more experience person incharge lol. The most stupid things is they ask people to go to stage to have games. Omg...first saw this childish things happen in wedding dinner. They should have karaoke ma.....so that wont be so dull. But finally the environment was brought up by us. Wedding dinner sure have 'yam seng' section lo. So be part of the hengdai, first time joining and walk to each table to shout 'yam seng'. Haah...this is the first experience i have. It was fun. (The feeling is like i am the one who married).....hahaa....But, during our turn, i was so touch. First time i felt that the scout i have 6 year ago was still here. Although everyone was as different place after graduate, but the spirit was still there. We shout our yells which we did it during our young scout training. And today we were shout again. I felt that this is the last long friend that i going to have until i die. I really have this best of friends in my life. First time i felt that i really have a bunch of best friend in my life which can help and rely on. And i know it will last forever.......
Lastly, wish sky and victoria (his wife) have a happy wedding day and wait to here a good news from you la. Best wishes.
Friday, November 26, 2010
New post -nightmare
It was back to normal and another posting is where i am. This time is a 'scary' posting for me. It can be consider as 'only women'in there. It was 1 week gone. And left 8 more week before the exam come. This week is consider the most free time i had lol. Out of seven day, i have two day off. And it was just stay in the room and study. Therefore, there was no difference on that. HAahaa...... Everytime I starts a new posting, i need some time to adapt it and this time is nevertheless. This time is even worst where the workload is much more and the management in the department is the worst i ever see. But, as what my dear told me, just take it as a challenge and nothing have to be scared. It make me turn my mind and take it more bravely. I hope this can last long.
Many people tell me this is a nightmare posting. The lecturers are fierce, serious, is hard, and for me it was so unfamiliar for me and this is really not my business lol........hahaa.( Just want to express my view of thought) But, in reality it is important and is common for my career. Therefore, i will put 200% effort instead of pass the exam. I really hope all the things go well for the rest of the day.
It will be a busy for the next few month even saturday and sunday have class. Therefore, i hope i can have time to spend with the dear as he also busy with his bunch of work. Although it was busy for us, i do hope that i could receive message and concern from him to support my sole and mind. I hope that this wont be a much for him la. hahaa......
Lastly, wish the dear get well soon as he had cough since came back from London. To my god, please do good to the dear and treat him to get well soon.
Many people tell me this is a nightmare posting. The lecturers are fierce, serious, is hard, and for me it was so unfamiliar for me and this is really not my business lol........hahaa.( Just want to express my view of thought) But, in reality it is important and is common for my career. Therefore, i will put 200% effort instead of pass the exam. I really hope all the things go well for the rest of the day.
It will be a busy for the next few month even saturday and sunday have class. Therefore, i hope i can have time to spend with the dear as he also busy with his bunch of work. Although it was busy for us, i do hope that i could receive message and concern from him to support my sole and mind. I hope that this wont be a much for him la. hahaa......
Lastly, wish the dear get well soon as he had cough since came back from London. To my god, please do good to the dear and treat him to get well soon.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Got a single room, into single life.
It was a new semester again. Time flies. In this semester, i get a single room. There was no people share room with me. It is a good thing for me. At last i can have my own privacy time during in my hostel. It was still the same room. But, this time there was no people in that small area looking at me. There was no people will wake me up at the middle of the night. I can have a good sleep at night. I can watch xxx in my privacy room. Glad to have all the freedom.
But.......the problem is still there. The aircone is not yet fix. I still sleeping in a sauna room. It was like hell. And this time the room cannot be lock. It was so shock that i could not open the door today as the key is not match the lock. SUcks !!! ( First time break into a room using a telephone card...want me to become a thief)
This semester will be very tough. I need to study very hard and need to push myself on it. The subject is important and hard. I need to struggle on it instead to get a pass. I do not want to repeat the posting. I hope i could do it.
And for you dear, i do not know what happen to you. I sms you but you did not reply. I ask you to sms me but you did not. Hope to hear from you soon.
But.......the problem is still there. The aircone is not yet fix. I still sleeping in a sauna room. It was like hell. And this time the room cannot be lock. It was so shock that i could not open the door today as the key is not match the lock. SUcks !!! ( First time break into a room using a telephone card...want me to become a thief)
This semester will be very tough. I need to study very hard and need to push myself on it. The subject is important and hard. I need to struggle on it instead to get a pass. I do not want to repeat the posting. I hope i could do it.
And for you dear, i do not know what happen to you. I sms you but you did not reply. I ask you to sms me but you did not. Hope to hear from you soon.
Monday, November 15, 2010
I hate....
today 15/11/2010 monday
I felt sad today. My father finally make another problem again. He make another borrow money from my mum. I really felt disappointed with him this time. Last time RM3000, now RM 5000. I dont like this situation. But, he just ask for a hurry. It was for the lousy business he doing. There was no profit business. Everytime spent and throw money inside without any payback. My mother hardly earn money was like that used by him. He was borrow money from along somemore. How could this happen now!!!!
The whole day was good until he came back. He is a drinker and smoker which i hate most. Since i was 16 years old, he started to become like that. The condition is getting worst. I really sick of him. When he can behave better? I really did not hope much from him. Today i have a talk with him. Ask him to close his business and declare bankrupt. But, he don't want. My heart was firing. But, i need to pretend understandable. I cannot outburst my anger. I knew he would not tell me more if i scolded or quarrel with him. He would not listen to me if we are not understand him. But, how should i advice him? What action should i take to solve this problem? Am i responsible all this?
I am the only son. Besides me, who will help him ? the only one is me. My dear tell me before, no matter what happen, he is your father. You will need to take care of him no matter what. This is the words appear in my mind that always make me calm and reduce my fire.
And now, i am incharging all this. I need to make sure he will repay my mum money. I need up to date all the things now. I really felt that is time for me to take over all the responsible. I need to tell myself not to throw the heavy burden to my mum alone. I don't want my mum suffer anymore. And i have to tell myself i can do it.
I CAN DO IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pls remember : EVERYTHING COME WITH A GOOD PURPOSE
p/s: Thanks dear for calling me the right moment and right time. I really felt realise after talking to you. Hope you get well soon and will meet again if there is free time la. Take care !!!
I felt sad today. My father finally make another problem again. He make another borrow money from my mum. I really felt disappointed with him this time. Last time RM3000, now RM 5000. I dont like this situation. But, he just ask for a hurry. It was for the lousy business he doing. There was no profit business. Everytime spent and throw money inside without any payback. My mother hardly earn money was like that used by him. He was borrow money from along somemore. How could this happen now!!!!
The whole day was good until he came back. He is a drinker and smoker which i hate most. Since i was 16 years old, he started to become like that. The condition is getting worst. I really sick of him. When he can behave better? I really did not hope much from him. Today i have a talk with him. Ask him to close his business and declare bankrupt. But, he don't want. My heart was firing. But, i need to pretend understandable. I cannot outburst my anger. I knew he would not tell me more if i scolded or quarrel with him. He would not listen to me if we are not understand him. But, how should i advice him? What action should i take to solve this problem? Am i responsible all this?
I am the only son. Besides me, who will help him ? the only one is me. My dear tell me before, no matter what happen, he is your father. You will need to take care of him no matter what. This is the words appear in my mind that always make me calm and reduce my fire.
And now, i am incharging all this. I need to make sure he will repay my mum money. I need up to date all the things now. I really felt that is time for me to take over all the responsible. I need to tell myself not to throw the heavy burden to my mum alone. I don't want my mum suffer anymore. And i have to tell myself i can do it.
I CAN DO IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pls remember : EVERYTHING COME WITH A GOOD PURPOSE
p/s: Thanks dear for calling me the right moment and right time. I really felt realise after talking to you. Hope you get well soon and will meet again if there is free time la. Take care !!!
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Free time = waiting you
It is one week gone. Finally tomorrow you are back. And waiting you is like part of my time. My free time will be waiting for you. Waiting you is already become an usual thing for me. It already becomes dull. No more emotion, no more expression, no more feeling. When it becomes like that, i also dont know. Since when it become so hard for me to see you. When there is a chance to meet you, i will put all my things away and rush to see you. I am missing the time that we have. When will be the time?
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Monday, November 8, 2010
LeAnn Rimes : " probably wouldn't be this way "
This was introduced by a friend which recently know him. Just shared with you all. It a nice song.
Tuesday blue
Normally people will said Monday blue, but it was a Tuesday blue for me.
The day was empty,
No class. No date. No one accompany,
Alone facing the boring words, books, paper,
wondering why it was so dull.
Today is day 4 he off to UK,
There is another 4 days to go,
why it felt like longer than the two weeks,
I have no idea.
Am i worry him this time?
The weather had turn cool,
the time is different from here,
is it far away from here.
Didnt get any news from him ?
dont know how he do?
Are you ok?
Hope everything is fine.
Everyday go to your facebook,
to see your face and book,
finally saw a post from your page,
it said the weather is so cool here.
Wear more cloths,
Cover with more blanket at night,
Drink more hot coffee,
wish can give you a warmest hug.
I just wake up from sleep,
You just going to sleep,
no connection from us at dream,
wonder can you sleep well.
Just a simple message from here,
take good care and miss you.
How good i can throw a snow ball on your face like in this picture...gagagaga...
The day was empty,
No class. No date. No one accompany,
Alone facing the boring words, books, paper,
wondering why it was so dull.
Today is day 4 he off to UK,
There is another 4 days to go,
why it felt like longer than the two weeks,
I have no idea.
Am i worry him this time?
The weather had turn cool,
the time is different from here,
is it far away from here.
Didnt get any news from him ?
dont know how he do?
Are you ok?
Hope everything is fine.
Everyday go to your facebook,
to see your face and book,
finally saw a post from your page,
it said the weather is so cool here.
Wear more cloths,
Cover with more blanket at night,
Drink more hot coffee,
wish can give you a warmest hug.
I just wake up from sleep,
You just going to sleep,
no connection from us at dream,
wonder can you sleep well.
Just a simple message from here,
take good care and miss you.
How good i can throw a snow ball on your face like in this picture...gagagaga...
Friday, November 5, 2010
External hard disc 500GB
Today bought a HD external hard disc 500GB from the pc fair in midvalley. It was RM219.00 ( Normal price:RM269.00). I get to buy my favourite colour - blue. The bamboo help me to search around and pick it. Thanks for that. I find it so warm in heart. But, unfortunately this month have to keep fit lo. NO more money to eat and leisure liao.....too bad.
Death place
this is the first scary movie we watch together. But, the movie was not that scary. But, i can felt that he is scare to watch it. This is his first time to watch scary movie in the cinema. i can felt the breath while he is watching it, we are holding each other when the scary scene, i can felt the tense he had, i can felt the heart is beating,.........and many more. haaha....maybe he scare all this will happen when he is alone in the lonely place. So sorry dear to make u watch that horror movie.
He said: hei, i am not scary aboutt the movie oh.
He said: hei, i am not scary aboutt the movie oh.
Coffee
Recently found out that he like coffee very much. Actually i knew that he like to drink coffee. But, today i found out that he is really really like coffee. Is like addicted to coffee. He like those pure coffee....what we call kopi-o.
He also very care about the style of drinking coffee. He dont like those plastic cup. It must be like cup that suit coffee. Then only the coffee will taste good. Haaha......today only knew that he so particular on the act of drinking coffee.
He said: i do like coffee very very much and must be with milk milk de.
and have to use proper cup, no plastic up, i hate that.
He also very care about the style of drinking coffee. He dont like those plastic cup. It must be like cup that suit coffee. Then only the coffee will taste good. Haaha......today only knew that he so particular on the act of drinking coffee.
He said: i do like coffee very very much and must be with milk milk de.
and have to use proper cup, no plastic up, i hate that.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
瀑布记
2-11-2010 （星期二）
今天下午和一班朋友去了 Jeram Tengkek 的瀑布。本来以为天不作美，没得去。过后朋友的邀约最后还是去了。
一上巴士，天气变转晴。心顿时觉得老天爷真好。四十五分钟的车程， 便到了Hutan Lipur Jeram Tengkek。
它第一给我的感觉就是宁静和清新。好久没吸那么清新的空气，顿时觉得大自然好好哦。 到了后，便沿着一条路沿行，前方便是一座雄伟的瀑布。瀑布打在石头上的声音，水打滚的生音，树叶摇摆的声音，正让我觉得这正是人生一大享受。坐在瀑布的脚下仿佛决的自己好渺小，水打在我的背上仿佛它在为我按摩，无数的水气漂流在我的脸上就好像它在抚摸我的脸， 冷冷的水仿佛正在暖暖我热热的心。这感觉我好久没感受了，真舒服。也许这里是给我在这里（五个星期）一个美好的回忆。 大自然，我爱你。
今天下午和一班朋友去了 Jeram Tengkek 的瀑布。本来以为天不作美，没得去。过后朋友的邀约最后还是去了。
一上巴士，天气变转晴。心顿时觉得老天爷真好。四十五分钟的车程， 便到了Hutan Lipur Jeram Tengkek。
它第一给我的感觉就是宁静和清新。好久没吸那么清新的空气，顿时觉得大自然好好哦。 到了后，便沿着一条路沿行，前方便是一座雄伟的瀑布。瀑布打在石头上的声音，水打滚的生音，树叶摇摆的声音，正让我觉得这正是人生一大享受。坐在瀑布的脚下仿佛决的自己好渺小，水打在我的背上仿佛它在为我按摩，无数的水气漂流在我的脸上就好像它在抚摸我的脸， 冷冷的水仿佛正在暖暖我热热的心。这感觉我好久没感受了，真舒服。也许这里是给我在这里（五个星期）一个美好的回忆。 大自然，我爱你。
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Ring ring ring
It was 5pm,
sudden the phone ring,
it was him,
delightful shot up my heart.
He was on his way home,
stop in a resthouse,
having a tea and conunut bun,
talking with a big stone.
Although it is a short talk,
but it cover the meaning of missing each other
Although it is a short talk,
but it showed that he want to share the time with me.
It was the end of October,
tomorrow start a new month,
There was no expectation from you,
just hope that you are all right and happy.
Take care, dear.
sudden the phone ring,
it was him,
delightful shot up my heart.
He was on his way home,
stop in a resthouse,
having a tea and conunut bun,
talking with a big stone.
Although it is a short talk,
but it cover the meaning of missing each other
Although it is a short talk,
but it showed that he want to share the time with me.
It was the end of October,
tomorrow start a new month,
There was no expectation from you,
just hope that you are all right and happy.
Take care, dear.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
very very miss you......
Wake up early morning,
did not sleep very well that night.
the whole night dream about him.
Am i too miss him?
One week stay apart,
is like apart for thousand years.
His face and image appear in my mind,
i could not resist to think of him.
It is rather hard not to think him,
thought can forget of him after decide to let go,
but finally it only last for one day,
and the last blog had deleted.
But, the god still let him saw the deleted blog,
and a lot of argument and comment between us,
the content is still the same,
and we still connect to each other.
unfinish assignment was waiting for me,
but i could not really think about it.
Open his blog,
read the older blog he wrote,
start from the first day and until now,
let me think how my first impression to him,
recheck back how wonderful moment we have,
and how we start off at that time.
the sparkling shock, the books, the first lunch in sushi Zen,
having coffee in coffee bean............
let me think of the first feeling we have,
do you still remember of that?
waiting and be patient,
is the only things i can do,
i try to forget, but i could not,
i try to let go, but i could not.
Just a simple message in the morning,
to let you know i am thinking of you,
no other things,
because i really miss you very very much.
did not sleep very well that night.
the whole night dream about him.
Am i too miss him?
One week stay apart,
is like apart for thousand years.
His face and image appear in my mind,
i could not resist to think of him.
It is rather hard not to think him,
thought can forget of him after decide to let go,
but finally it only last for one day,
and the last blog had deleted.
But, the god still let him saw the deleted blog,
and a lot of argument and comment between us,
the content is still the same,
and we still connect to each other.
unfinish assignment was waiting for me,
but i could not really think about it.
Open his blog,
read the older blog he wrote,
start from the first day and until now,
let me think how my first impression to him,
recheck back how wonderful moment we have,
and how we start off at that time.
the sparkling shock, the books, the first lunch in sushi Zen,
having coffee in coffee bean............
let me think of the first feeling we have,
do you still remember of that?
waiting and be patient,
is the only things i can do,
i try to forget, but i could not,
i try to let go, but i could not.
Just a simple message in the morning,
to let you know i am thinking of you,
no other things,
because i really miss you very very much.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
心痛
我心好痛，
我好想放声大哭，
你突然的离去，
以为就这样失去了你。
我不想告诉你这一却，
但是当你失去的那一杀那，
我真的以为你当真了，
我心顿时觉得好害怕，心快要崩溃了。
原来我真的需要你，我不能没有你，
告诉你我那么那么的坚强，
不介意，无所谓，原来我还没到那阶段，
只是想呈现出外表坚强而已。
谢谢你一通的简讯，一通的电话，
让我心安定了，
原来我真的不能没有你，
为什么，这叫什么，我中毒了？
你即将搬离，何时再相会，
我你不知道，
但是我只知道，我会等，
等你，等你告诉我， 我能来找你了。
我好想放声大哭，
你突然的离去，
以为就这样失去了你。
我不想告诉你这一却，
但是当你失去的那一杀那，
我真的以为你当真了，
我心顿时觉得好害怕，心快要崩溃了。
原来我真的需要你，我不能没有你，
告诉你我那么那么的坚强，
不介意，无所谓，原来我还没到那阶段，
只是想呈现出外表坚强而已。
谢谢你一通的简讯，一通的电话，
让我心安定了，
原来我真的不能没有你，
为什么，这叫什么，我中毒了？
你即将搬离，何时再相会，
我你不知道，
但是我只知道，我会等，
等你，等你告诉我， 我能来找你了。
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Friday, September 17, 2010
未来。。。
这几天开始想我的未来会是怎么样。原来我没有好好去想想我的未来。我每天不停的横冲直撞的过日子。想怎样过就怎样过。没好好珍惜我的时间。没好好规划我的时间，我的未了。原来时间是不会等人，时间是不停的走。只有我再那儿浪费。
你说得对，我是时候想想我要如何规划我的时间，分配我的时间，因为我现在不是以前的我了。我有一个关心，爱护，思念，陪伴我的人。虽然我不能像一般的人光明正大的恋爱，可是这些已经不重要了。我相信你，我也相信自己，这应该是我们俩拥有的，也是最重要的。记得你曾经说--我就你那个人了。虽然那时我们刚刚认识一个月，可是你也那么的爱护我，照顾我。我真的非常感激你。没有你的出现我想现在的我还在那儿转圈圈。也许这一却是天意吧！！！
我不期望我们的未来会是怎样。也许没期望，就没失望吧。所以我才能够珍惜我们在一起的时光。也许是一个很好的相处方法。但是，没期望就没动力，咳。。。。真烦恼 ......既然烦恼就别烦咯。哈哈。（有时真觉得自己傻傻的）@=@
未来......我会是怎样？记得有位老师告诉我，你现在的生活是怎样，你未来的生活也会差不多。除非你不断地对自己有要求，对自己设定一个更美好的目标，不要太快对自己作的事情满意，这样你的生活才会美好，才会更精彩。因为社会是不停的进步，如果我还是原地踏步，那我会慢慢的被淘汰。俗语说:活到老，学到老。真能感受到这句名言。
也有一位长辈告诉我，当活在这社会，需不要太计较。 因为计较的人往往学不到。人总是要吃些亏，才能体会到人身历练，这才能处理多便人身。
也许是时候想想我的未来了。有首歌《我的未来不是梦》也需能描述我的心情吧！
你说得对，我是时候想想我要如何规划我的时间，分配我的时间，因为我现在不是以前的我了。我有一个关心，爱护，思念，陪伴我的人。虽然我不能像一般的人光明正大的恋爱，可是这些已经不重要了。我相信你，我也相信自己，这应该是我们俩拥有的，也是最重要的。记得你曾经说--我就你那个人了。虽然那时我们刚刚认识一个月，可是你也那么的爱护我，照顾我。我真的非常感激你。没有你的出现我想现在的我还在那儿转圈圈。也许这一却是天意吧！！！
我不期望我们的未来会是怎样。也许没期望，就没失望吧。所以我才能够珍惜我们在一起的时光。也许是一个很好的相处方法。但是，没期望就没动力，咳。。。。真烦恼 ......既然烦恼就别烦咯。哈哈。（有时真觉得自己傻傻的）@=@
未来......我会是怎样？记得有位老师告诉我，你现在的生活是怎样，你未来的生活也会差不多。除非你不断地对自己有要求，对自己设定一个更美好的目标，不要太快对自己作的事情满意，这样你的生活才会美好，才会更精彩。因为社会是不停的进步，如果我还是原地踏步，那我会慢慢的被淘汰。俗语说:活到老，学到老。真能感受到这句名言。
也有一位长辈告诉我，当活在这社会，需不要太计较。 因为计较的人往往学不到。人总是要吃些亏，才能体会到人身历练，这才能处理多便人身。
也许是时候想想我的未来了。有首歌《我的未来不是梦》也需能描述我的心情吧！
生病了。。。
这几天生病了。 伤风，咳嗽，头痛，发烧 ，样样都来，好难熬。想想自己也好久没生病了。也想不起上一次是几时生病。一个星期的假期就变成是生病星期，真是扫兴。 一个人跟病魔打仗真辛苦。 心里是多么希望他能在我身边。可是也不想麻烦他。他有成千上万的工夫等着他去作， 所以只好天天思念他， 想他，等他。。。
想起和你五天的日子，心里很开心。突然间觉得自己好像在发梦。好喜欢你的拥抱，好喜欢一早起身就能被你抚摸，好喜欢和你一起享用早餐，喜欢你的体味。 不知何时我已经习惯了。还记得有一晚我迟到， 你傻傻的在那儿等我，一句话都没骂我，没讲我，还问肚子饿吗?要吃宵夜吗？我真的觉得这几天好幸福，好快乐，这真是我一直向往的日子。 好想和你说谢谢，让我感受这一却。想起时我还能笑呢。
五天就这样过去，也回到现实生活。 每次我俩要分开，都是不舍得。虽然你没说但我可感受到你那不舍的心情。我也不是也一样。原来思念一个人比伤风感冒还来得难熬。有一首歌《思念是一种病》果然描述得真好。不知道有什么药能治疗这病？ 无论什么病，只希望身体健健康康，也希望自己早日康复。
想起和你五天的日子，心里很开心。突然间觉得自己好像在发梦。好喜欢你的拥抱，好喜欢一早起身就能被你抚摸，好喜欢和你一起享用早餐，喜欢你的体味。 不知何时我已经习惯了。还记得有一晚我迟到， 你傻傻的在那儿等我，一句话都没骂我，没讲我，还问肚子饿吗?要吃宵夜吗？我真的觉得这几天好幸福，好快乐，这真是我一直向往的日子。 好想和你说谢谢，让我感受这一却。想起时我还能笑呢。
五天就这样过去，也回到现实生活。 每次我俩要分开，都是不舍得。虽然你没说但我可感受到你那不舍的心情。我也不是也一样。原来思念一个人比伤风感冒还来得难熬。有一首歌《思念是一种病》果然描述得真好。不知道有什么药能治疗这病？ 无论什么病，只希望身体健健康康，也希望自己早日康复。
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
分享
今天我和你分享了我们的事情。不不.......应该是你告诉了我你的问题。我听了你的问题后，第一个反应是那问题是出自于我吗？无可否认那也许是和我有一点关系。 因为我的出现，令你有那么多的冲动。 但你曾告诉我那问题你以前已有了，我希望你能好好的去决觉这问题。也许时间能决觉一却，你也许不要太着急去找那答案，跟着你的心走吧！
在这两个小时的论坛中，我也许无法告诉你该真么做，也没有给你希望。我是很矛盾的。因为我只希望你开心。我不期望我们能在一起的日子，我不期望你能为我做那么多的事，我只期望你所做的一却是为了你自己，为了你能够更开心的过日子，过得不必喊累，睡不着觉，不能专心的工作......
享受现在拥有的，珍惜你有的一却，分享你的喜悦，千万要记住你不是一个人，还有很多关心你的人在你身旁。希望你能坚强和勇敢的面对你的问题，我相信你有能力把事情做得好和完美的。加油！！！
在这两个小时的论坛中，我也许无法告诉你该真么做，也没有给你希望。我是很矛盾的。因为我只希望你开心。我不期望我们能在一起的日子，我不期望你能为我做那么多的事，我只期望你所做的一却是为了你自己，为了你能够更开心的过日子，过得不必喊累，睡不着觉，不能专心的工作......
享受现在拥有的，珍惜你有的一却，分享你的喜悦，千万要记住你不是一个人，还有很多关心你的人在你身旁。希望你能坚强和勇敢的面对你的问题，我相信你有能力把事情做得好和完美的。加油！！！
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Diary 3
is time to update my blog......dairy 3
29 August 2010, 11.07pm
Just back to my room in college. After a 4 day break, i back to my study life.
Tomorrow will be another new subject-FM.
So, regarding my last exam, haiz...luck was not with me. I got a case which not very familiar. Therefore, i was done badly. Hope the examiner will pass me. I had done my best. I knew that i did not know much about the theory, but i had answered all the things i knew. Pray god.
So, any happy thing happen around? hahaa...sure. Firstly, i would like to congratulate to my best friend + best bro-kky which had his graduation last two week. I really happy that saw him finally succeed to obtain a degree. He is my best bro in my life. we knew each other since form 1. He is the first friend i met in secondary school. We joined scout together. We went to tuition together. We share a lot of happy moment together. During scout time, we went to school together, participate in marching. Until now, it was already 10 years. I was really unexpected that time gone so fast. It was 10 years already. Hope our friendship will last till the end. You are my best brother in my life and i will help you whenever you need.
Second, last friday i had a wonderful time with my mum. It had long time i did not went out with my mum. Therefore, i brought her to shopping mall. We went to mid valley. Since there had a Jusco warehouse sales, therefore we got to bought cheap shirt and things. haha....i bought a santa barbara shoe which cost RM110 only. whoohoo...Normal price is 219. Damn happy...haha... Then, i brought her to Sunway piramid as well. We have sakae Sushi as our dinner. It was a wonderful outing with my mum. We shop from 10am to 10pm. woohoo...so nice.
Thirdly, i sure would not forget my dear. He is the one support me the most. Thanks dear. Really looking forward to the day you get your new house. I waiting for the time we going to decorate your house, buy the furniture, and taste each other cook. hehe... Imagine also felt happy dy...;)
LAstly, wish all my friends happy Merdeka. Smile always...;)
29 August 2010, 11.07pm
Just back to my room in college. After a 4 day break, i back to my study life.
Tomorrow will be another new subject-FM.
So, regarding my last exam, haiz...luck was not with me. I got a case which not very familiar. Therefore, i was done badly. Hope the examiner will pass me. I had done my best. I knew that i did not know much about the theory, but i had answered all the things i knew. Pray god.
So, any happy thing happen around? hahaa...sure. Firstly, i would like to congratulate to my best friend + best bro-kky which had his graduation last two week. I really happy that saw him finally succeed to obtain a degree. He is my best bro in my life. we knew each other since form 1. He is the first friend i met in secondary school. We joined scout together. We went to tuition together. We share a lot of happy moment together. During scout time, we went to school together, participate in marching. Until now, it was already 10 years. I was really unexpected that time gone so fast. It was 10 years already. Hope our friendship will last till the end. You are my best brother in my life and i will help you whenever you need.
Second, last friday i had a wonderful time with my mum. It had long time i did not went out with my mum. Therefore, i brought her to shopping mall. We went to mid valley. Since there had a Jusco warehouse sales, therefore we got to bought cheap shirt and things. haha....i bought a santa barbara shoe which cost RM110 only. whoohoo...Normal price is 219. Damn happy...haha... Then, i brought her to Sunway piramid as well. We have sakae Sushi as our dinner. It was a wonderful outing with my mum. We shop from 10am to 10pm. woohoo...so nice.
Thirdly, i sure would not forget my dear. He is the one support me the most. Thanks dear. Really looking forward to the day you get your new house. I waiting for the time we going to decorate your house, buy the furniture, and taste each other cook. hehe... Imagine also felt happy dy...;)
LAstly, wish all my friends happy Merdeka. Smile always...;)
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
final exam....countdown 4 days
I was been away from my blog quite sometime. I was busy preparing for my end posting exam. It just has 4 more days. I felt a bit nervous. But, i hope i can do well and get the case that i can score...woohoo...pray for god. This time really put effort on my study. I hope wont disappointed to myself, dear and family.
Erm......i really like this psy posting. It means a lot for me. I had learnt to be more mature and learn many new things. It is fun to have my 1st posting in 4th year. BEsides that, thanks to the pt that i haven been interview. You all are great to me. Thanks for giving me information to me. I hope you all will get well soon.
THings are going well for this few weeks. Maybe i think good, my feeling was good, and felt everything was good. Although sometime very miss my family and my dear ( mum, dad, sis and dear i miss you all) , i know i have to focus in my exam first. ( haaha...Really hope i can do well this time. )
Lastly, wish to all my coursemate can do well in their exam as well. Waiting to enjoy and going for shopping after the exam...;) yahoo...
Erm......i really like this psy posting. It means a lot for me. I had learnt to be more mature and learn many new things. It is fun to have my 1st posting in 4th year. BEsides that, thanks to the pt that i haven been interview. You all are great to me. Thanks for giving me information to me. I hope you all will get well soon.
THings are going well for this few weeks. Maybe i think good, my feeling was good, and felt everything was good. Although sometime very miss my family and my dear ( mum, dad, sis and dear i miss you all) , i know i have to focus in my exam first. ( haaha...Really hope i can do well this time. )
Lastly, wish to all my coursemate can do well in their exam as well. Waiting to enjoy and going for shopping after the exam...;) yahoo...
Sunday, August 8, 2010
only write and remember happy moment...
Recently went to a short courses of mindful gym. THanks for my dr who offering this short course. It was very useful for me. PMR, deep breathing, imagination, yahoo, 3-G and learn to observe negative thought is the things in it. From now on, i will only think happy and write happy moment in my blog. I realise that my blog are all sadness and unhappy things. THis view that i am quite negative thought.
Review myself............haiz.........
From Now on... think happy, write happy, life will be happy.
Sometime is not that people make us sad. It sometime my thought, then represent my feeling. And this is true.
So, i want to learn happy and live happy. No more sadness in this blog. Only happy moment in this blog.
Gambate steven...
Hope can share a lot of happy moment here.
ALWAYS REMEMBER : DONT WORRY BE HAPPY... EVERYTHING HAPPEN WITH A GOOD PURPOSE.
Review myself............haiz.........
From Now on... think happy, write happy, life will be happy.
Sometime is not that people make us sad. It sometime my thought, then represent my feeling. And this is true.
So, i want to learn happy and live happy. No more sadness in this blog. Only happy moment in this blog.
Gambate steven...
Hope can share a lot of happy moment here.
ALWAYS REMEMBER : DONT WORRY BE HAPPY... EVERYTHING HAPPEN WITH A GOOD PURPOSE.
30 hours...
I damn miss him,
Another 30 hours only we can meet,
I have to be patient,
Waiting is the only i can do.
Thinking of you is like part of my life,
From the morning, afternoon and evening,
From breakfast, lunch and dinner,
Every moment, minutes, and second.
Independent, control emotion, and hard-working,
Not too pamper and please
this is his advice to me,
i will always remember the teach you gave me.
Pls tell me if u felt pressure,
dont keep in heart,
i hope there is no gap between us,
i do will tell u all my stuff bc we have many wonderful moment.
the first movie we watch is Ipman2,
The first place we meet is Midvalley,
the first time we kiss was in ur house,
and i am first time being describe as a big stone.
Hope to see you,
Hope to hug you,
Hope to kiss you,
And waiting to meet my dear in 30 hours......
Another 30 hours only we can meet,
I have to be patient,
Waiting is the only i can do.
Thinking of you is like part of my life,
From the morning, afternoon and evening,
From breakfast, lunch and dinner,
Every moment, minutes, and second.
Independent, control emotion, and hard-working,
Not too pamper and please
this is his advice to me,
i will always remember the teach you gave me.
Pls tell me if u felt pressure,
dont keep in heart,
i hope there is no gap between us,
i do will tell u all my stuff bc we have many wonderful moment.
the first movie we watch is Ipman2,
The first place we meet is Midvalley,
the first time we kiss was in ur house,
and i am first time being describe as a big stone.
Hope to see you,
Hope to hug you,
Hope to kiss you,
And waiting to meet my dear in 30 hours......
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
disappointed week......
Here come to Friday,
but this was a disappointed week,
have done nothing in this week
had made my dear sad.
Sorry, i am sorry,
i doesn't mean want to hurt you,
i know you are angry,
because of my laziness.
I have no idea,
my mood up and down,
i am fear, scare, anxious,
i dont like that feeling.
Where is my confidence?
where is my motivation?
where is my discipline?
I am distress.
I just want to back home to refresh,
I just miss my mum, dad and sis,
i dont really want you to be alone,
but i have to be cruel to you to let you alone.
My heart was broken every time you tell me you are sad,
my heart was unstable when i decide to go home,
my heart was crying after finish the conversation with you in the phone,
It was hard for me not to be with you.
receive a love email from you on wednesday,
heart was damn happy and joy,
no word can describe the feeling,
but will read and remember it until the end of my life.
12.28pm noon (low mood)
but this was a disappointed week,
have done nothing in this week
had made my dear sad.
Sorry, i am sorry,
i doesn't mean want to hurt you,
i know you are angry,
because of my laziness.
I have no idea,
my mood up and down,
i am fear, scare, anxious,
i dont like that feeling.
Where is my confidence?
where is my motivation?
where is my discipline?
I am distress.
I just want to back home to refresh,
I just miss my mum, dad and sis,
i dont really want you to be alone,
but i have to be cruel to you to let you alone.
My heart was broken every time you tell me you are sad,
my heart was unstable when i decide to go home,
my heart was crying after finish the conversation with you in the phone,
It was hard for me not to be with you.
receive a love email from you on wednesday,
heart was damn happy and joy,
no word can describe the feeling,
but will read and remember it until the end of my life.
12.28pm noon (low mood)
Friday, July 23, 2010
i am sorry......
i am sorry to let you wait,
half an hour, ten minutes,
is my fault,
bc of not understand you much yet.
waiting for you nearly one an half hour,
planning for our activities,
but just half of it,
half off it gone.
sitting on ur table,
writting using ur laptop,
missing you for the whole week,
but, come to a confuse day.
i am sorry.
i know i always keep word and dint said out
but i scare you feel i irritating
silence will be the best.
two month been together,
a dinner celebrating at manhattan fish,
but wonder you know that or not,
a disappointed heart.
i know i shouldn't hope that much,
i know all the things u cant give,
i know, i know, i know,
but...... i hope to have.
that all.
half an hour, ten minutes,
is my fault,
bc of not understand you much yet.
waiting for you nearly one an half hour,
planning for our activities,
but just half of it,
half off it gone.
sitting on ur table,
writting using ur laptop,
missing you for the whole week,
but, come to a confuse day.
i am sorry.
i know i always keep word and dint said out
but i scare you feel i irritating
silence will be the best.
two month been together,
a dinner celebrating at manhattan fish,
but wonder you know that or not,
a disappointed heart.
i know i shouldn't hope that much,
i know all the things u cant give,
i know, i know, i know,
but...... i hope to have.
that all.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Unmotivated
A cool and rainy morning.
Make me feel want to lie on the bed for the whole morning.
My leg was so heavy to step out of the room.
The time was flew every second, minutes and hours.
It was half pass eight now.
I still sitting in front of the laptop.
Yesterday was upset by a drug addict.
Now my confident still in the deep of the sea.
Sometime, i felt lonely.
Where is my friend.
At least i know he is always be with me,
and i still can survive until now.
wish everyday will be fine,
wish everyday will be smooth,
wish the pain in every part of my body gone away,
and i can have full of energy and motivated.
Make me feel want to lie on the bed for the whole morning.
My leg was so heavy to step out of the room.
The time was flew every second, minutes and hours.
It was half pass eight now.
I still sitting in front of the laptop.
Yesterday was upset by a drug addict.
Now my confident still in the deep of the sea.
Sometime, i felt lonely.
Where is my friend.
At least i know he is always be with me,
and i still can survive until now.
wish everyday will be fine,
wish everyday will be smooth,
wish the pain in every part of my body gone away,
and i can have full of energy and motivated.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
SPECIAL FOR YOU...
HE NOT FEELING WELL,
BUT, HE CANT REST.
HE HAVE MANY WORK WAITING FOR HIM TO DO,
BUT, I CANT HELP HIM MUCH.
HE HAVE TO ASK HIS LOAN OF HIS NEW HOUSE,
BUT, I CANT ACCOMPANY HIM TO THE BANK.
HE HAVE TO THINK HOW TO RENOVATE OF HIS HOUSE,
BUT, I DON'T REALLY HAVE TIME TO SIT DOWN AND DISCUSS WITH HIM.
I HOPE HE GET WELL SOON.
I HOPE HE CAN FINISH HIS WORK AS HE WISH.
I HOPE HE CAN REST EARLY.
I HOPE HE CAN HAPPY ALWAYS.
I HOPE HE COULD TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF.
AND
I WILL TAKE CARE MYSELF
I WILL CONCENTRATE AND FOCUS ON MY STUDY
I WONT MAKE YOU WORRY OF ME
I WILL MISS YOU EVERY SECOND, MINUTE AND HOURS.
BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.
TAKE CARE MY DEAR...AND SPECIAL FOR YOU.
BUT, HE CANT REST.
HE HAVE MANY WORK WAITING FOR HIM TO DO,
BUT, I CANT HELP HIM MUCH.
HE HAVE TO ASK HIS LOAN OF HIS NEW HOUSE,
BUT, I CANT ACCOMPANY HIM TO THE BANK.
HE HAVE TO THINK HOW TO RENOVATE OF HIS HOUSE,
BUT, I DON'T REALLY HAVE TIME TO SIT DOWN AND DISCUSS WITH HIM.
I HOPE HE GET WELL SOON.
I HOPE HE CAN FINISH HIS WORK AS HE WISH.
I HOPE HE CAN REST EARLY.
I HOPE HE CAN HAPPY ALWAYS.
I HOPE HE COULD TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF.
AND
I WILL TAKE CARE MYSELF
I WILL CONCENTRATE AND FOCUS ON MY STUDY
I WONT MAKE YOU WORRY OF ME
I WILL MISS YOU EVERY SECOND, MINUTE AND HOURS.
BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.
TAKE CARE MY DEAR...AND SPECIAL FOR YOU.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
背對背擁抱
你我在一间小房间，听着这首歌，我紧紧地抱着你，你近近的靠着我，好怀念那感觉。
背對背擁抱 詞：林怡鳳 曲：林俊傑
話總說不清楚 該怎麼明瞭
一字一句像圈套
舊帳總翻不完 誰無理取鬧
你的雙手甩開剛好的微妙
然後戰火再燃燒
我們背對背擁抱
濫用沉默在咆哮
愛情來不及變老
葬送在烽火的玩笑
轉載來自
我們背對背擁抱
真話兜著圈子亂亂繞
只是想讓我知道
只是想讓你知道 愛的警告(這警告)
我不要一直到 形同陌路變成自找
既然可以擁抱 就不要輕易放掉
背對背擁抱 詞：林怡鳳 曲：林俊傑
話總說不清楚 該怎麼明瞭
一字一句像圈套
舊帳總翻不完 誰無理取鬧
你的雙手甩開剛好的微妙
然後戰火再燃燒
我們背對背擁抱
濫用沉默在咆哮
愛情來不及變老
葬送在烽火的玩笑
轉載來自
我們背對背擁抱
真話兜著圈子亂亂繞
只是想讓我知道
只是想讓你知道 愛的警告(這警告)
我不要一直到 形同陌路變成自找
既然可以擁抱 就不要輕易放掉
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Headache morning.....
15-7-2010 9.37am
Today was a bad morning. Cant sleep well for the whole night. It was disturbed by the alarm. Ringing the whole night. Then, nightmare was wonder around my mind. Heard the sound of the schizophrenic people talking to me. Wonder why the night was so terrible?
My heart felt uncomfortable. WOnder to phone him this morning to tell him all this. But, fail to do that. YEsterday, he told me the same thing again. And i know that there will be something wrong again. Is he going to leave me soon? Is he trying to give signal to me that he dont want me? or am i too troublesome him and cause him irritating?
This morning i found out that what happen if one day i really dont have him anymore. I will feel like empty like this morning. I cant concentrate to listen to my lec this morning. The mind is keep thinking of him. But, not dare to phone him bc i know that he will leave me one day and i want to train to live by myself. But....the heart feel want to cry. Tearing running around my eye......It was hard.
How? i really dont know............
Today was a bad morning. Cant sleep well for the whole night. It was disturbed by the alarm. Ringing the whole night. Then, nightmare was wonder around my mind. Heard the sound of the schizophrenic people talking to me. Wonder why the night was so terrible?
My heart felt uncomfortable. WOnder to phone him this morning to tell him all this. But, fail to do that. YEsterday, he told me the same thing again. And i know that there will be something wrong again. Is he going to leave me soon? Is he trying to give signal to me that he dont want me? or am i too troublesome him and cause him irritating?
This morning i found out that what happen if one day i really dont have him anymore. I will feel like empty like this morning. I cant concentrate to listen to my lec this morning. The mind is keep thinking of him. But, not dare to phone him bc i know that he will leave me one day and i want to train to live by myself. But....the heart feel want to cry. Tearing running around my eye......It was hard.
How? i really dont know............
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Missing him
Currently sitting at MCD at my town. The TV is showing Paraguay VS Sepanyol... Was waiting my book where send to photostat shop... get the chance to update my blog... and start to think of him...i think he is doing his exercise at a park now...
He was back to his home town for 4 days. He took leave and back to his house to do his work. He was away and back to his usual life. Back to the responsible life he need to...
It was 1 and a half month we know each other. He was a nice and concern guy. Although there is a gap between our age, but we can talk and is like know each other very well ( although just a few meet). He concern and care me which let me felt the warmess from him. He willing to listen to my problem and teach me how to solve it. He give me alot of idea and support me as well. Is all this will last Long? Is all this create by god? Is this the destiny we have since the last decade ? The was no answer of it.
He always tell me not to love him. He cant give what i want at last. He ask me find a better guy that can last Long. ( and most of the time i hate him to tell this to me). But, i know that he told me all this is for the good of me. He want me to have a better life later. He don't want me to get hurt. ( and i really dont know how to do.)
i just know that currently i felt happy to have him and want to share with him of my everything.
Are we together Now？ Can i consider he is my dear? BC there are no promise between us. and i dont know how long we will last. But, as he said he will treat me good where the time we are together. and honest to be said i already fall in love with him and treat him as my bf. Am i stupid? I really dont know. I just felt that it was great when there is a people is care, concern, and be with him when he felt empty.
I could said that is lucky to know him. It is hard to find a good and nice guy like him. It is my pleasure to know him. Want to said a THOUSAND THANK TO HIM for all the giving, sacrifices, concern and care. And i promise him to study hard, live happy and wont think so much.
LOVe you.
He was back to his home town for 4 days. He took leave and back to his house to do his work. He was away and back to his usual life. Back to the responsible life he need to...
It was 1 and a half month we know each other. He was a nice and concern guy. Although there is a gap between our age, but we can talk and is like know each other very well ( although just a few meet). He concern and care me which let me felt the warmess from him. He willing to listen to my problem and teach me how to solve it. He give me alot of idea and support me as well. Is all this will last Long? Is all this create by god? Is this the destiny we have since the last decade ? The was no answer of it.
He always tell me not to love him. He cant give what i want at last. He ask me find a better guy that can last Long. ( and most of the time i hate him to tell this to me). But, i know that he told me all this is for the good of me. He want me to have a better life later. He don't want me to get hurt. ( and i really dont know how to do.)
i just know that currently i felt happy to have him and want to share with him of my everything.
Are we together Now？ Can i consider he is my dear? BC there are no promise between us. and i dont know how long we will last. But, as he said he will treat me good where the time we are together. and honest to be said i already fall in love with him and treat him as my bf. Am i stupid? I really dont know. I just felt that it was great when there is a people is care, concern, and be with him when he felt empty.
I could said that is lucky to know him. It is hard to find a good and nice guy like him. It is my pleasure to know him. Want to said a THOUSAND THANK TO HIM for all the giving, sacrifices, concern and care. And i promise him to study hard, live happy and wont think so much.
LOVe you.
8D7N Shanghai....
16 June 2010 - 23 June 2010 (Shanghai)
Me and family went to Shanghai for our family trip. I would said that this is my first time travelled to oversea. It was excited and i was so lucky have the chance to travel to shanghai at the age of 23. Actually we decide to travel to shanghai because of the shanghai expo. The trip was booked early in the March during the Matta fair.
So overall the trip was great. The food are delicious and the hotel given are all 4 star ( as in malaysia is like 3 star). But, i was satisfied. Out trip consist of 18 people. But unluckily there was no lengzai in my trip. (haiz....)
Shanghai is a big and developed city. The first impression to me is high building everywhere around the city. It was far far more developed than Malaysia. ( when can Malaysia be like shanghai?....Malaysian should learn from the chinese. ) But, i dont like the people in shanghai. Could said that the people there are rude and selfish. They dint really care and kind to people. The traffic in shanghai is terrible. It is like 'no law on road'.( haaha....i saw many car make a u-turn in the middle of the cross road....even our bus driver do that....haahaa....how dare if this happen in mas, i think there is a big accident will happened.
har...u should sure will ask me...how abt the guy? how there look like? haaha....i would said that if u like slim and fair guy, u should go to shanghai and find. haaha...most of the guy there are slim and fair. I could said that they have a nice body as well...... Lengzai everywhere...... haaha...so my eye was busy so,of the time....(heehe). 杭州 guy is the kind and nice, 无锡 guy is rich and handsome,上海 guy is stylish. (but still malaysia guy is the best !!!) hahaa....
so, below include some photo taken on my trip.
Me and family went to Shanghai for our family trip. I would said that this is my first time travelled to oversea. It was excited and i was so lucky have the chance to travel to shanghai at the age of 23. Actually we decide to travel to shanghai because of the shanghai expo. The trip was booked early in the March during the Matta fair.
So overall the trip was great. The food are delicious and the hotel given are all 4 star ( as in malaysia is like 3 star). But, i was satisfied. Out trip consist of 18 people. But unluckily there was no lengzai in my trip. (haiz....)
Shanghai is a big and developed city. The first impression to me is high building everywhere around the city. It was far far more developed than Malaysia. ( when can Malaysia be like shanghai?....Malaysian should learn from the chinese. ) But, i dont like the people in shanghai. Could said that the people there are rude and selfish. They dint really care and kind to people. The traffic in shanghai is terrible. It is like 'no law on road'.( haaha....i saw many car make a u-turn in the middle of the cross road....even our bus driver do that....haahaa....how dare if this happen in mas, i think there is a big accident will happened.
har...u should sure will ask me...how abt the guy? how there look like? haaha....i would said that if u like slim and fair guy, u should go to shanghai and find. haaha...most of the guy there are slim and fair. I could said that they have a nice body as well...... Lengzai everywhere...... haaha...so my eye was busy so,of the time....(heehe). 杭州 guy is the kind and nice, 无锡 guy is rich and handsome,上海 guy is stylish. (but still malaysia guy is the best !!!) hahaa....
so, below include some photo taken on my trip.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
back awhile....
whao...it seem like more than 2 week dint update my blog. Recently many things is going on and dint have much time to update my blog. But, i try to update asap ....just come back for a while and next blog will update my trip in shanghai, my dear and my new semester. see ya...
Thursday, June 10, 2010
diary 2
since away for too long from my blog...just update myself.
recently was kinda busy of work. i went to work for the pass one week. It was a part time job as a worker in a book fair. Today will be the last 3 days and gonna be end on this sunday. It was tired. Everyday work from 10am and back home around 11pm. And cant find myself to update my blog...
So, how abt me and he? haha...we still contact. He visit me at the book fair on monday. And we do have dinner together. He is so kind and concern me as well. Thanks for treating me so good.Although i do think very much, but i hope we are happy while the time we have together. Just want to said - THANKS YOU TO YOU.
KInda next week going to Shanghai for vacation, so wont be around to update my blog. So, June will be the silent Blog. DOnt really have a good time to sit down write my blog. Will update more after come back from shanghai.
Regards, take care my friends and bye.
recently was kinda busy of work. i went to work for the pass one week. It was a part time job as a worker in a book fair. Today will be the last 3 days and gonna be end on this sunday. It was tired. Everyday work from 10am and back home around 11pm. And cant find myself to update my blog...
So, how abt me and he? haha...we still contact. He visit me at the book fair on monday. And we do have dinner together. He is so kind and concern me as well. Thanks for treating me so good.Although i do think very much, but i hope we are happy while the time we have together. Just want to said - THANKS YOU TO YOU.
KInda next week going to Shanghai for vacation, so wont be around to update my blog. So, June will be the silent Blog. DOnt really have a good time to sit down write my blog. Will update more after come back from shanghai.
Regards, take care my friends and bye.
Monday, May 31, 2010
SLeepless ...
It was a insomnia night. today, i went to find him. I dont know why my desire to see him become so strong. Am i miss him too much? Yes, i do. Am i stupid ? I will said...yes.
He was late for 15 min. But, i know that he was busy. I know that he purposely put away his work and wanted to meet me. (although he said he is free). There was some confuse when he said he cant found me. SO, when i saw him, he was opposite the road. He give me a big smile. And my heart was so happy when i saw him.
It was a great day with him again. And i know that our born is getting closer. SHould i continue like this? I really dont know. It is like a 'shock' with him. But, i know that he dont like buy things. I felt like it is wasting of his time when walking in the shopping mall. He just follow me where i go. And walk around with no purpose. I try to figure something that we can talk beside the two topic.
After the movie, i start to felt unwell(stomach bloating). But, i dint told him. So, we went for dinner (which the food is sucks) and just left the mall. While driving back, the atm is kinda quite. And i know he is tired ( of thinking too much)and busy day. I ask him to rest early and i left.
p/s: Today i really felt the warmess of you. Thanks for the wonderful day and treating me as well. I will remember today!!! Take care...
He was late for 15 min. But, i know that he was busy. I know that he purposely put away his work and wanted to meet me. (although he said he is free). There was some confuse when he said he cant found me. SO, when i saw him, he was opposite the road. He give me a big smile. And my heart was so happy when i saw him.
It was a great day with him again. And i know that our born is getting closer. SHould i continue like this? I really dont know. It is like a 'shock' with him. But, i know that he dont like buy things. I felt like it is wasting of his time when walking in the shopping mall. He just follow me where i go. And walk around with no purpose. I try to figure something that we can talk beside the two topic.
After the movie, i start to felt unwell(stomach bloating). But, i dint told him. So, we went for dinner (which the food is sucks) and just left the mall. While driving back, the atm is kinda quite. And i know he is tired ( of thinking too much)and busy day. I ask him to rest early and i left.
p/s: Today i really felt the warmess of you. Thanks for the wonderful day and treating me as well. I will remember today!!! Take care...
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Grandmother birthday
29-05-2010 Saturday
Today, we decided to celebrate our grandmother 75th year old birthday. Since i was having holiday and nothing to do( accually is to get me busy), i volunteer to help my aunt and mum to prepare the dinner. They ask me to do jelly. And it was a easy stuff for me. haaha......
Accually, i want to write this blog not because of those stuff. It was i get some impression during that night. My grandmum is already 75 y.o. But, she have a bit of dementia. She used to have psycho problem during young time. So, the dementia could be caused by the drug she took. Sometime, she look normal but sometime she was scare and is abnormal. Tonight, i can see that she was happy. She act super dupper normal. She can eat, can talk, can do anything as usual. And, i talk so much with her tonight. She complained that her gum is pain(she wearing denture) and is painful while eating. She complained of the skin become dry and scaly. Then, she started to tell me her young time story.....etc.
That time i was thinking...life is so short. And, what to do if i am the age of my grandmum. It was like ......many thing i havent done yet. And, i need to appreciate my time and not waste too much of it. i need to be more hard working to achieve my goal. I need to be more active in my life. The most important is ...dont be scare and dont think so much....( i know that i think too much sometime....haaha)
So, i dont kNow how long my grandmum will be in this world. But, i know that last time my grandmum love me very much. And, now is time for me to love her back.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH MA AND I LOVE YOU.
Today, we decided to celebrate our grandmother 75th year old birthday. Since i was having holiday and nothing to do( accually is to get me busy), i volunteer to help my aunt and mum to prepare the dinner. They ask me to do jelly. And it was a easy stuff for me. haaha......
Accually, i want to write this blog not because of those stuff. It was i get some impression during that night. My grandmum is already 75 y.o. But, she have a bit of dementia. She used to have psycho problem during young time. So, the dementia could be caused by the drug she took. Sometime, she look normal but sometime she was scare and is abnormal. Tonight, i can see that she was happy. She act super dupper normal. She can eat, can talk, can do anything as usual. And, i talk so much with her tonight. She complained that her gum is pain(she wearing denture) and is painful while eating. She complained of the skin become dry and scaly. Then, she started to tell me her young time story.....etc.
That time i was thinking...life is so short. And, what to do if i am the age of my grandmum. It was like ......many thing i havent done yet. And, i need to appreciate my time and not waste too much of it. i need to be more hard working to achieve my goal. I need to be more active in my life. The most important is ...dont be scare and dont think so much....( i know that i think too much sometime....haaha)
So, i dont kNow how long my grandmum will be in this world. But, i know that last time my grandmum love me very much. And, now is time for me to love her back.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH MA AND I LOVE YOU.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Tired....
It seem like it was a empty day again. Although i make myself so busy busy busy, but at last it was empty again... Tonight i start to felt tired. I felt tired of my life. I start to review ...
Today, i decide to bring my grandmom, two aunt and mum went for shopping. I bring them to IOI mall. Honestly, it is to make me busy and wondering around so that i make myself busy and wont think so much. As usual, this time i bought myself a watch and a sport shoe. The outing was end at around 4pm. Evening went to play badminton with friend. At last, end up here writing blog at 1030pm....
Although time is occupy fully, i still felt like empty. Tonight i start to felt tired. Tired not because of the busy day, is tired of meeting ppl around... tired of socialising with ppl...tired of talking to ppl who dont know my secret... tired of getting know stranger...tired tired tired.
my friend ask me for out on sunday for a gathering... i dont felt like going. It is like waste of time...it will be like talking nonsense around them....
I really need a rest... ZzzZzzZzz...
Today, i decide to bring my grandmom, two aunt and mum went for shopping. I bring them to IOI mall. Honestly, it is to make me busy and wondering around so that i make myself busy and wont think so much. As usual, this time i bought myself a watch and a sport shoe. The outing was end at around 4pm. Evening went to play badminton with friend. At last, end up here writing blog at 1030pm....
Although time is occupy fully, i still felt like empty. Tonight i start to felt tired. Tired not because of the busy day, is tired of meeting ppl around... tired of socialising with ppl...tired of talking to ppl who dont know my secret... tired of getting know stranger...tired tired tired.
my friend ask me for out on sunday for a gathering... i dont felt like going. It is like waste of time...it will be like talking nonsense around them....
I really need a rest... ZzzZzzZzz...
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Senses
This few days was a bit confuse. Since we meet on last sat, we do chat everyday. I start to think of him everyday. During working, i was thinking of him. After come back from work or after dinner, was thinking to chat with him. AND, this is what i shouldn't do. I start to question myself and think so much again...
And yesterday, he ask me one question...Do i give you too much 'pressure' ? That time i told him what i am thinking. And again i Know he is struggling too. But, he cant do anything for me. And i Know what he can do is just care and concern my feeling and some how take care me. He said felt guilty of wasting my time in chatting and siao with him. ( bc waste my time on chatting with other guy.)Thanks for treat me so good and fare to me as well.... After exchange idea, we Know the situation and I start not to think of relationship. I Know he felt lonely and he request for movie, shopping and travelling as well. Dont worry...i will ask you for movie, shopping and travelling. Because FRIEND ARE STILL IMPORTANT IN LIFE. SOMEHOW TRUE FRIEND LIKE YOU IS HARD TO FIND. AND I DON'T WANT IT BE DESTROY.
Somehow wish you can sleep well and happy always !!! God bless...!!!
And yesterday, he ask me one question...Do i give you too much 'pressure' ? That time i told him what i am thinking. And again i Know he is struggling too. But, he cant do anything for me. And i Know what he can do is just care and concern my feeling and some how take care me. He said felt guilty of wasting my time in chatting and siao with him. ( bc waste my time on chatting with other guy.)Thanks for treat me so good and fare to me as well.... After exchange idea, we Know the situation and I start not to think of relationship. I Know he felt lonely and he request for movie, shopping and travelling as well. Dont worry...i will ask you for movie, shopping and travelling. Because FRIEND ARE STILL IMPORTANT IN LIFE. SOMEHOW TRUE FRIEND LIKE YOU IS HARD TO FIND. AND I DON'T WANT IT BE DESTROY.
Somehow wish you can sleep well and happy always !!! God bless...!!!
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Second meet ....
Today 22-05-2010,
it was another special day. Today, i promise to meet another 'stranger' friend who i Know from fridae. He was asking me for a movie on the second time we chat on msn. But, that time i was 'busy' prepare my exam and promise to meet him after that. He told me that he make ME a birthday present and ask me to have a date and collect it. Since i already promise him, so i need to keep my promise and meet him today.
The day was started with a rainy day. Around 1030am, my phone rang...and it was him. I pick it up...: hello hello hello.....few time..he dint talk...after that he told me that it rain heavily and ask me to drive slowly. Then, the conversation end. Haahaa...this is the first time listen to his voice. From there i know that he is a safe guy. Unfortunately, we suppose to meet at 11am. But, i was late. (so sorry for that). Anyway, he dint angry and was so nice and gentle. He welcomed me by shake hand (p/s:later only Know that he want to welcome me with a hug...haahaa;). that time, my brain was blank. I dont know what to said and just follow him.
It is so weird that the first place we went is to see property.(that time mv having property exhibition) I Know that he is planning to buy a house. So, i just follow him. that time i really dont know what i am looking. Just walk around and look around. The ip man 2 was 2.15pm. So, we went to have lunch before the movie. (It was so sad to tell that i forget to bring my camera...dint take photo...) We sit there for 2 hours. We share many things but most of the time he was the person to talk. HAAHA...i was just always staring at him and listen to what he said. I just can said that he is a special and good person. His perception is totally different from the people i meet before. He told me many of his 'confidential' things. But, not all la...so, as time goes by, i felt that we can talk very much. Although sometime is speechless, and i just stare at him only....haaha..;)
As time come on, we went for our movie. Then, we went to coffee bean for tea time and we do chat again for another 2 hours. We do have dinner together although at first place i plan to play badminton at 7pm. But, dont kNow y ...my leg and buttock cant moved from the place. But, i dint regret to have that dinner with him. It was wonderful time with him all the day. And he told me that he dint done such a thing previously. This was his first time. Then, i felt guilty of wasting his time to do such a stupid date? Walking ard in mv with no reason. ( but..after read his blog...he was enjoy it...glad to hear that.)
There is a funny thing happen all the day. There was 'electric current' running through us...when i get close to him and touch his arm, we can felt like there are current and get 'shock'. haaha...it happen many many times...haaha..;) This make it as our memorable thing in our first date. It is so special...;)
And the date end after our dinner. And it was 10pm. I cant believed that the time passed by so fast. At the moment i left him, i thought of will he sent me to my car before he left...but finally dint get it. He just bye bye and we just left.
ps: the present was a small book made by himself. It was nice and pretty. I Wish to keep it as souvenir. But, he ask me to use it. There will no meaning if i dint use it. So, i will use to carefully. Anyway...want to said : THANKS YOU for the present.
ps2:i know that he cant give what i want. But, I just hope that there are still concern and caring between us. Hope since after the first meet, there will no ending and the friendship will last long.
it was another special day. Today, i promise to meet another 'stranger' friend who i Know from fridae. He was asking me for a movie on the second time we chat on msn. But, that time i was 'busy' prepare my exam and promise to meet him after that. He told me that he make ME a birthday present and ask me to have a date and collect it. Since i already promise him, so i need to keep my promise and meet him today.
The day was started with a rainy day. Around 1030am, my phone rang...and it was him. I pick it up...: hello hello hello.....few time..he dint talk...after that he told me that it rain heavily and ask me to drive slowly. Then, the conversation end. Haahaa...this is the first time listen to his voice. From there i know that he is a safe guy. Unfortunately, we suppose to meet at 11am. But, i was late. (so sorry for that). Anyway, he dint angry and was so nice and gentle. He welcomed me by shake hand (p/s:later only Know that he want to welcome me with a hug...haahaa;). that time, my brain was blank. I dont know what to said and just follow him.
It is so weird that the first place we went is to see property.(that time mv having property exhibition) I Know that he is planning to buy a house. So, i just follow him. that time i really dont know what i am looking. Just walk around and look around. The ip man 2 was 2.15pm. So, we went to have lunch before the movie. (It was so sad to tell that i forget to bring my camera...dint take photo...) We sit there for 2 hours. We share many things but most of the time he was the person to talk. HAAHA...i was just always staring at him and listen to what he said. I just can said that he is a special and good person. His perception is totally different from the people i meet before. He told me many of his 'confidential' things. But, not all la...so, as time goes by, i felt that we can talk very much. Although sometime is speechless, and i just stare at him only....haaha..;)
As time come on, we went for our movie. Then, we went to coffee bean for tea time and we do chat again for another 2 hours. We do have dinner together although at first place i plan to play badminton at 7pm. But, dont kNow y ...my leg and buttock cant moved from the place. But, i dint regret to have that dinner with him. It was wonderful time with him all the day. And he told me that he dint done such a thing previously. This was his first time. Then, i felt guilty of wasting his time to do such a stupid date? Walking ard in mv with no reason. ( but..after read his blog...he was enjoy it...glad to hear that.)
There is a funny thing happen all the day. There was 'electric current' running through us...when i get close to him and touch his arm, we can felt like there are current and get 'shock'. haaha...it happen many many times...haaha..;) This make it as our memorable thing in our first date. It is so special...;)
And the date end after our dinner. And it was 10pm. I cant believed that the time passed by so fast. At the moment i left him, i thought of will he sent me to my car before he left...but finally dint get it. He just bye bye and we just left.
ps: the present was a small book made by himself. It was nice and pretty. I Wish to keep it as souvenir. But, he ask me to use it. There will no meaning if i dint use it. So, i will use to carefully. Anyway...want to said : THANKS YOU for the present.
ps2:i know that he cant give what i want. But, I just hope that there are still concern and caring between us. Hope since after the first meet, there will no ending and the friendship will last long.
RM9 ringgit only !!!
Friday - 21-05-2010
today plan to go IOI mall to repair my printer and pay the remaining shanghai trip fees to the travel agency which is situated at IOI mall too. i went there early in the morning. Do you Know what i saw......is PADINI GROUP WAREHOUSE SALES. ( sorry i cant find any poster) . The price is as Low as RM9. It is damn cheap. The sales start since 1st may until 30th of may.( was thinking it held because of me....haahaa.. siao liao) SO, after settle all my stuff and my sister left me, i straight away go shop. I spent almost 2 hours there and finally get 1 t-shirt, 1 long pants, 2 singlet, and 1 collar shirt. It just cost me...... RM70.50 only !!! omg...dint shop until so shuang before. I wish to buy more but try to control myself not to spent so much. haahaa...It was awesome.
This is what i bought....
Then after went to watch movie - Kidnapper. It was RM6 for a movie ticket at IOI mall. When the seller told me: ' Sir, rm6 ringgit pls.....i was stare at her...and said RM6 ringgit ? haahaa...It was like so unbelievable. But, after enter the cinema only i Know why it cost so cheap....haaha;) There is some unpleasant smell in it. And the chair was so uncomfortable.Haiz... This is call ' 一分钱，一分货 '.
Regarding the movie, it was so so for me...... But, there are some touching screen la...But, it is quite bored me la...Bc there is no handsome actor. SAd...;)
today plan to go IOI mall to repair my printer and pay the remaining shanghai trip fees to the travel agency which is situated at IOI mall too. i went there early in the morning. Do you Know what i saw......is PADINI GROUP WAREHOUSE SALES. ( sorry i cant find any poster) . The price is as Low as RM9. It is damn cheap. The sales start since 1st may until 30th of may.( was thinking it held because of me....haahaa.. siao liao) SO, after settle all my stuff and my sister left me, i straight away go shop. I spent almost 2 hours there and finally get 1 t-shirt, 1 long pants, 2 singlet, and 1 collar shirt. It just cost me...... RM70.50 only !!! omg...dint shop until so shuang before. I wish to buy more but try to control myself not to spent so much. haahaa...It was awesome.
This is what i bought....
Then after went to watch movie - Kidnapper. It was RM6 for a movie ticket at IOI mall. When the seller told me: ' Sir, rm6 ringgit pls.....i was stare at her...and said RM6 ringgit ? haahaa...It was like so unbelievable. But, after enter the cinema only i Know why it cost so cheap....haaha;) There is some unpleasant smell in it. And the chair was so uncomfortable.Haiz... This is call ' 一分钱，一分货 '.
Regarding the movie, it was so so for me...... But, there are some touching screen la...But, it is quite bored me la...Bc there is no handsome actor. SAd...;)
Friday, May 21, 2010
Diary 1
Finally find myself sometime to update my blog...so this time i really cant think of any titie- so just put it as 'diary 1'. I think i have been away for 2 week from my blog. So...a lot to update.
I finish my exam LOL....yeah !!! and having break for 1 months. this time, was done badly for my exam. Dint prepare well. But, i just aim for pass. Hope i can pass la. SO, 4 weeks vacation? what i am going to do? haiz... actually my vacation can consider just 2 week. i will go for a part time job for another 2 weeks. Shopping, movie and cleaning my room is what i will do during holiday. Nothing special on it. Everytime sem break, this is the time to relax myself and wont touch any of the books. haha...;)
Besides that, there is a family trip to shanghai. Yeah...!!! finally get the chance to travel to other country. This is the first time flight to shanghai. Was waiting the day to come...hoho...SHanghai expo here i come !!!
Besides that, i will do a part time job at the book fair. This is my second time work on it. Last year , it was introduced by a friend. SO, this time there ask whether i am interest on it. Due to lack of money, i just agree to do it. Although it is tired, but no choice. Since i am already 'shopping addict', have to find money by myself so that i can shop shop shop all the time......haahaa...;)So, wondering there is any sales recently? wish to buy shoes, bag, short pants, shirt, specs, necklace, perfumes ...and wish to buy myself a nice CK underwear as for my own birthday present...haaha;) since i havent buy myself a birthday present this year.
I finish my exam LOL....yeah !!! and having break for 1 months. this time, was done badly for my exam. Dint prepare well. But, i just aim for pass. Hope i can pass la. SO, 4 weeks vacation? what i am going to do? haiz... actually my vacation can consider just 2 week. i will go for a part time job for another 2 weeks. Shopping, movie and cleaning my room is what i will do during holiday. Nothing special on it. Everytime sem break, this is the time to relax myself and wont touch any of the books. haha...;)
Besides that, there is a family trip to shanghai. Yeah...!!! finally get the chance to travel to other country. This is the first time flight to shanghai. Was waiting the day to come...hoho...SHanghai expo here i come !!!
Besides that, i will do a part time job at the book fair. This is my second time work on it. Last year , it was introduced by a friend. SO, this time there ask whether i am interest on it. Due to lack of money, i just agree to do it. Although it is tired, but no choice. Since i am already 'shopping addict', have to find money by myself so that i can shop shop shop all the time......haahaa...;)So, wondering there is any sales recently? wish to buy shoes, bag, short pants, shirt, specs, necklace, perfumes ...and wish to buy myself a nice CK underwear as for my own birthday present...haaha;) since i havent buy myself a birthday present this year.
Monday, May 10, 2010
happy 23th birthday...
currently this post is written at 1.06am 11-5-2010. Tuesday. And today is my 23th years old birthday. Just want to wish myself happy birthday. people are wishing me hope my dream come true. SO, what will be my dream? Normally Ppl said u can make 1 wishes during ur birthday day. But, i abit greedy la...i want 3 wishes. SO...
first wish : i wish my parents happy and healthy always and hope that there wont be any conflict between me and my family. No matter what, I love u all very much. U all are mine everything.
Second wish: i wish i can continue my study and finish it peacefully. I dont hope i can be the top scorer. But, i just hope that i can be more independent, more confident and can focus on what i learning Now.
Third wish: I JUST WANT HAPPY ALWAYS.
HAAHAA......LASTLY BOY...HAPPY 23TH BIRTHDAY....
ps: thanks to all my friends who have wishes me happy birthday...This year i really feel the happy of birthday although just a simple wishes....;)
first wish : i wish my parents happy and healthy always and hope that there wont be any conflict between me and my family. No matter what, I love u all very much. U all are mine everything.
Second wish: i wish i can continue my study and finish it peacefully. I dont hope i can be the top scorer. But, i just hope that i can be more independent, more confident and can focus on what i learning Now.
Third wish: I JUST WANT HAPPY ALWAYS.
HAAHAA......LASTLY BOY...HAPPY 23TH BIRTHDAY....
ps: thanks to all my friends who have wishes me happy birthday...This year i really feel the happy of birthday although just a simple wishes....;)
first date......
It was my first date with him. There was so many things to write. Due to time constraint, i think i just summarise it la...... so, early in the morning. As usual, wake up at 7am. He told me that his flight reach at 10am. But, he reach at 830am. There was miss of time by him. So, i was rush from my house to KLIA. It took 1 hour for me to reach the airport. My heart was palpating. The feeling of happiness and exciting which i really cant describe by words. ( it was like sense of belonging and secure). The first expression he give me is a big smile. Then, i was reply back by a big smile also.
THen after, we went to pavillion. On the way to pavillion, we chat but most of time is he talk la...... I was silent all the way. When we reach pavillion, we went for lunch. We went to a chinese restaurant( i forget the name). It was luxurious and nice. He order 4 dishes include the dumpling which i want. We do chat and eat. The atmosphere was good. (ps: feel sad of not taking photo on that time)
So, we just walk around after lunch. He like shopping. But, it was weird. He said he dont have much things to buy this time. so, we just walk around. We went to have dessert and iron man 2. THen, he bring me to West 57th ST.cafe for dinner. The place is nice and the food is delicious an the price is affordable too. Since he treat me for lunch, so i decide to treat him for dinner. After the dinner, we just went home. He was not feeling well. He is having flu and earache. haahaa...i dint expect anything from him. but, we do have some fun that night. (i wont describe here la...it's mine secret. ) hehe ;)The next day, after breakfast we went for shopping again and sent him to his friend house at bukit jalil. It was a difficult moment to separate with him, but i know i have to. So, i just give him a big hug before i leave.
Although it was only one and a half day with him, it was feel good. I dint feel such happy since last year. Although there are something happen in between, i hope he can forget and forgive me. Hope there will be another time to meet again and our friendship will last long......Thanks calvin...and will miss you always...take care and wish you good luck in your career.
( p/s:Dear calvin, just want to tell you that i will miss you always. Anything happen just give me a call. I know i cant help much, but at least i can lend my ear to you.)
Hope the following picture, is part of our wonderful memories la.
THen after, we went to pavillion. On the way to pavillion, we chat but most of time is he talk la...... I was silent all the way. When we reach pavillion, we went for lunch. We went to a chinese restaurant( i forget the name). It was luxurious and nice. He order 4 dishes include the dumpling which i want. We do chat and eat. The atmosphere was good. (ps: feel sad of not taking photo on that time)
So, we just walk around after lunch. He like shopping. But, it was weird. He said he dont have much things to buy this time. so, we just walk around. We went to have dessert and iron man 2. THen, he bring me to West 57th ST.cafe for dinner. The place is nice and the food is delicious an the price is affordable too. Since he treat me for lunch, so i decide to treat him for dinner. After the dinner, we just went home. He was not feeling well. He is having flu and earache. haahaa...i dint expect anything from him. but, we do have some fun that night. (i wont describe here la...it's mine secret. ) hehe ;)The next day, after breakfast we went for shopping again and sent him to his friend house at bukit jalil. It was a difficult moment to separate with him, but i know i have to. So, i just give him a big hug before i leave.
Although it was only one and a half day with him, it was feel good. I dint feel such happy since last year. Although there are something happen in between, i hope he can forget and forgive me. Hope there will be another time to meet again and our friendship will last long......Thanks calvin...and will miss you always...take care and wish you good luck in your career.
( p/s:Dear calvin, just want to tell you that i will miss you always. Anything happen just give me a call. I know i cant help much, but at least i can lend my ear to you.)
Hope the following picture, is part of our wonderful memories la.
Friday, May 7, 2010
Waiting for tomorow......
It's friday again...but i am waiting for Saturday to come. Tomorrow, calvin will flight from kk to kl for his induction programme. And i suggest myself to fetch him at airport, bring him around KL and overnight at my place for a night. So, THIS IS CRAZY !!! i have never done such things before. I dont know that i was so brave to do that. Am i stupid? i dont know. This is my first time i date with plu. He can consider the second plu i KNow. I know him through fridae website...i cant recall back when was our first message. But, that time i was just broke out with kt and missing wc. And that time i just admit that i really a plu. so then after i start seeking friend from fridae. After few day of searching, I saw calvin pic and add him. And he reply message to me. Since that time, we start to chat and i told him everthing to him. He is a nice guy and can talk alot. He willing to share with me too. But, most let me happy is he is a dr too... haaha...So, wondering what will happen tomorrow? haaha...i think tomorrow will be my early birthday present...( p/s: my birthday is on next tuesday) haaha...
waiting for what will happen tomorrow...;) So..to be continue;)
waiting for what will happen tomorrow...;) So..to be continue;)
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
countdown...2 weeks
exam will be come in 2 weeks time, and i am still wasting my time in chatting, blogging and facebooking. Recently sign up in fridae and kNow some plu friend. It was great that can chat and kNow new friend. But, this slow down my study process. I think i should stop it in this 2 weeks. Concentrate on my exam....just aim for pass this time. Dint expect high since dint really put effort in this semester. God bless la...
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Mei - new hairstyle...
A brand new month, MEi. April have gone and Mei is here. WIth the begin of new month, i cut my hair with a nice look after having a messy hair for pass one week......woohoo...
so although is Not much different from previously, but it is tidier and i wont look having a big head. HEHE;)So, thanks to my hair dresser who help me to cut this hairstyle. So, i been there for quite a few time. My first time been there was around dec 2009. When i step in to the hair studio, my first impression was ....whao, so many handsome guy inside and i was so excited (in heart la...). And the first hair dresser who help me cut is the most handsome among them. I still cant forget that that time i not even brave to stair at him. He has a handsome face, shinny and smooth skin(not even a single pimple), stylish big spec (like 方大同）and nice body. when he speak, the voice is so nice. Is my dream guy. So, i was like quite and pretend calm but my heart was so excited.....
So after few time visited to that hair studio, i get to speak with him. But, he is a popular hair dresser, so i choose to get another hair dresser to cut for me. He also a nice and funny guy. But. he is less handsome compare to him. To the new hair dresser, we can speak so much. But, i was always find chance to look at the handsome guy. HAAHAAHAA...;)
p/s: today the handsome guy look at me quite a few time while i cutting my hair. haahaa...so happy...
so although is Not much different from previously, but it is tidier and i wont look having a big head. HEHE;)So, thanks to my hair dresser who help me to cut this hairstyle. So, i been there for quite a few time. My first time been there was around dec 2009. When i step in to the hair studio, my first impression was ....whao, so many handsome guy inside and i was so excited (in heart la...). And the first hair dresser who help me cut is the most handsome among them. I still cant forget that that time i not even brave to stair at him. He has a handsome face, shinny and smooth skin(not even a single pimple), stylish big spec (like 方大同）and nice body. when he speak, the voice is so nice. Is my dream guy. So, i was like quite and pretend calm but my heart was so excited.....
So after few time visited to that hair studio, i get to speak with him. But, he is a popular hair dresser, so i choose to get another hair dresser to cut for me. He also a nice and funny guy. But. he is less handsome compare to him. To the new hair dresser, we can speak so much. But, i was always find chance to look at the handsome guy. HAAHAAHAA...;)
p/s: today the handsome guy look at me quite a few time while i cutting my hair. haahaa...so happy...
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Lan Yu...蓝宇
this is a 2001 gay love movie. I just get download today and watch it. It is a really nice and touching movie. i watch twice in my saturday night. If you havent watch before, u have to watch it. this is really a true love. I hope one day i really can find someone who love me so much.....like lan yu.
This movie also won a lot award including the best actor ....lan yu who act by hu yue. I like hi act so much. The following are some seen in this movie.
at the end of this movie..the main actor death and the theme song is so suit for this movie....and i cried at the end of movie. is so touching.....
This movie also won a lot award including the best actor ....lan yu who act by hu yue. I like hi act so much. The following are some seen in this movie.
at the end of this movie..the main actor death and the theme song is so suit for this movie....and i cried at the end of movie. is so touching.....
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