disappointed week......

Here come to Friday,
but this was a disappointed week,
have done nothing in this week
had made my dear sad.

Sorry, i am sorry,
i doesn't mean want to hurt you,
i know you are angry,
because of my laziness.

I have no idea,
my mood up and down,
i am fear, scare, anxious,
i dont like that feeling.

Where is my confidence?
where is my motivation?
where is my discipline?
I am distress.

I just want to back home to refresh,
I just miss my mum, dad and sis,
i dont really want you to be alone,
but i have to be cruel to you to let you alone.

My heart was broken every time you tell me you are sad,
my heart was unstable when i decide to go home,
my heart was crying after finish the conversation with you in the phone,
It was hard for me not to be with you.

receive a love email from you on wednesday,
heart was damn happy and joy,
no word can describe the feeling,
but will read and remember it until the end of my life.

12.28pm noon (low mood)